I come from a family of mental health history that scared me so much when I was a teenager that I would have rather commit suicide than get to that point where they've been. I've survived one attempt and a complete paralysis during those years, and choose to believe that if that's the case maybe I have something better to do with this life.
Now I understand that that choice was a thought reconstruction from the toxic version to the healthy one.
Doing the neurocycle program daily I've already discovered some remnant thoughts from that period and feel empowered to rebuild my whole (hi)story into a version that supports me in every step on the way.