Lately, I have been wondering how it is possible that I have been a permanent resident in rock bottom for the past twenty something years? And then I stumbled on a video of Vishen on FB. I downloaded the app, and after doing the 6 phase meditation, suddenly I knew that rock bottom was never meant to be my residence. I have been a Type 1 diabetic for the past 42 years. I have been a victim of a poor public health system in my country for many of those years. I spent most of my youth and childhood in aisles, in beds and on chairs in miserable hospitals. The A, B, C's of my life. I was diagnosed at a time when only animal insulin was available. My body vehemently rejected this insulin, so hospital beds became my residence. Not many professionals understood this disease back then, and regrettably, not much has changed. I was always scolded at for volatile blood glucose levels and anything else related or unrelated to my disease.
Eventually, I assumed responsibility for everything that went wrong in my life, because I, unfortunately, had no reference for things actually going well for me. This poured into every aspect of my life. I have a wealth of knowledge about a disease that receives very little attention. After listening to a few Mindvalley talks, I realized that I am extraordinarily different. I remind myself of that every time I want to blame myself for health issues over which I previously had no control.
Eventually, I assumed responsibility for everything that went wrong in my life, because I, unfortunately, had no reference for things actually going well for me. This poured into every aspect of my life. I have a wealth of knowledge about a disease that receives very little attention. After listening to a few Mindvalley talks, I realized that I am extraordinarily different. I remind myself of that every time I want to blame myself for health issues over which I previously had no control.