"I have moments of full lucidity"

It has always seemed incredible to me to receive so many images of another person that I do not know, with details of places, colors, smells, sounds and voices. It is also incredible to feel the affections of others in my own body. I have moments of full lucidity and I have other moments where I can't make contact with that person. The more I push and want more information, the less flow of information comes to me. So I've learned to relax and accept that it doesn't have to be when I want it to, but when the source allows it. That way I stay humble and grateful to connect when and how it should be.