This journey began before I even found the Holobody Coach Certification program. It really began when I stumbled upon Mindvalley. It was the beginning of the pandemic and I was stuck in quarantine with my ex-husband (fortunately we are still friends). At this time I was so lost. I was as uncertain of the world and my future as I was within myself. I was searching for something, anything to make my life feel worth living... to find direction and deeper meaning in my life. I had been lost inside myself for years, but the pandemic was really the nail in the coffin for me. I had planned to move to Portugal from the United States. It was not a purpose or a meaning for my life, but I had some sense of direction. Then, just like that, everything changed. My plans were canceled, I was jobless and stuck not only in the U.S., but with my ex-husband in an unintentional situation that was confusing and far from ideal.
As an empath, the pain and uncertainty the world was feeling due to the pandemic became my pain and it felt unbearable. I felt trapped. In my environment, in my mind and in my body. I was afraid and felt a new sense of unhinged hopelessness. I hardly got up out of bed, or went out of the house, and I ate food for comfort instead of need at a rate that I never had before. I gained 20 pounds in less than 2 months. I lost my connection to others and was generally afraid of and for the world. Then it happened. I found Mindvalley.
First, I took the Lifebook course. I had very little money and felt guilty about spending it on myself, but I decided to purchase the Lifebook course anyway. When I was finished with the Lifebook course, I decided to opt to not get the refund for the course. Even though this was a large sum of money for me to part with, I decided to pay for the course intentionally because I had gotten so much out of it. It gave me insights into myself and was the beginning of a positive vision for my life. I wasn't where I wanted to be yet, but a spark was ignited within me. For the first time in a long time I found hope again.
Then, I decided to become a Mindvalley Member. There was a discounted rate offered to me after purchasing the Lifebook program, so I said why not? It is still a lot of money, but I got so much out of the Lifebook program, I'll give it a try. It might just be worth the investment and I have to try something. At this point I had very low energy, was constantly fatigued, anxious and depressed. Most days it was difficult to get out of bed. I usually was flooded with a sense of dread upon waking every morning. The instant I was conscious, the anxiety would overwhelm me. Even through this difficult state, I held on to the glimpse of hope that I had received through the positive messages shared through the Lifebook program and the tribe there.
When I took the next leap and became a Mindvalley member I got up early and went to several live talks. I joined seminars and was inspired by the vibration of the Mindvalley community. I joined a couple of quests and was starting to feel that life had more to offer. There was something here. Something worth learning; something worth sharing. I then became more open to possibility and added that to the hope that I found with Lifebook.
During a Mindvalley seminar they promoted the Holobody Coaching
Certification course. I was nervous because this was a lot more money than I had at the moment, but... it called to me. I had been looking at several healing, health, wellness and spiritual programs for years and found it difficult to just pick one. This course was different... it was developed from a holistic mind, body and spirit approach. "Yes, this could be the thing that I've been looking for!", I thought. Nervous, but excited I signed up for the course.
Certification course. I was nervous because this was a lot more money than I had at the moment, but... it called to me. I had been looking at several healing, health, wellness and spiritual programs for years and found it difficult to just pick one. This course was different... it was developed from a holistic mind, body and spirit approach. "Yes, this could be the thing that I've been looking for!", I thought. Nervous, but excited I signed up for the course.
Through the four month Holobody journey that followed things did not turn out exactly like I expected them to, but as I've happily learned nothing in life ever does. I expected that I would push myself to finally be the best version of myself. What I learned instead was the value of loving who I am now and who I'm evolving into each day. Instead, I learned to stop pushing myself so hard and I found inner stillness where I used to be grasping. It gave me some direction and the tools I needed to learn, but I had to put in the work, persevere and truly see myself. I had to forgive myself for being lost. I stopped focusing on what I felt I needed to achieve and instead I met myself where I was.
Connected, surrounded and supported by the high vibration held by the Holobody Coach community and armed with the invaluable lessons and positivity from the course instructors and hosts (thank you Ajit, Ronan, Vishen, Sid and Toma), I reclaimed something powerful within myself that I had not tapped into within me in so long. I had finally reclaimed my faith. Faith in the world, faith in the universe and most importantly faith in myself.
Now as the course is ending... I see the journey into fully showing up for my life as just beginning. I am now excited to get up most mornings and even on hard days I find it so much easier to just do it (Ronan clapping and saying "wake up" comes to mind whenever the going gets tough). I still am in the process of putting all the pieces I've learned in this course into action, but I am far better off than where I started just four months ago.
A fellow coach I meet up with regularly recently told me that I seemed like a different person than who she met when we first started this course. I thought about this deeply and realized that I was not a different person... I had finally embraced my true self again. My soul is finally shining through me and those around me are recognizing and reflecting the empowered light in me. I now know that the direction and meaning in my life comes from within me. I am no longer searching for what will save me. I am now exploring, learning, growing and am enjoying all of the ups and downs on this journey of discovery. This course gave me the tools to save myself.
Although, I am still implementing all of the tools that I have learned, I have already seen so much transformation within myself. I have more energy, optimism, inner stillness, confidence, direction, faith and enjoyment in life. That empowerment is the biggest prize, although as a side note, I've also lost the 20 pounds that I gained at the beginning of the pandemic. I have reclaimed my inner vitality. I am ready to share what I have learned to help others live their most wonderful, healthy, beautiful, full lives as well. You have all that you need within you. The key is just unlocking it.
Love and Blessings to you all,
Bethany