Review to the quest: ups and downs and ups
I went into the quest with a certain amount of tension, worried about whether I would be able to complete it, as drained as I felt consistently.
I soon realized that it was good for me, that I was doing well and that my energy was growing.
The first confirmation was the pre-assessment test, because it showed me how far I had come already. What struck me as I filled it in was that I was extreme in my answers. Either fully yes or fully no. I.e. in some areas I had already come a long way, but there were some areas where it was still massively missing.
The first milestone was the flow blocker quiz. It was a 100% confirmation: Result: exhaustion. With a video with many good tips for improvement.
Probably the biggest step was the step-by-step development of the MTP through the two lists and finding out the overlaps. For the first time in my life, I've really managed to formulate a vision of an overarching goal that is really coherent, that feels right and worth being active for. The HHG are good too. Breaking it down into daily activities is a bit more difficult, because sometimes I don't quite know what is necessary to achieve the HHG. I'll work that out better.
Then came the part I dreaded the most: the grit training with exercises on Willpower, Endurance (#1), Mindset (#2), Best-Worst (#3), Weaknesses (#4 ), Fear (No5).
And I had two big insights:
1. I have been doing all the things suggested here for years. So none of that was a challenge at all. So at first I was disappointed. I was expecting to make a breakthrough here towards more energy - and now this.
But then came the great realization, relief and confirmation that a very big wish that had been cherished for some time had come true - namely: "Everything is already done!"
Only I had forgoten to regenerate and that was the reason for my burn out. And I've already made great strides in this direction over the last year and have also received additional good tips here in the quest.
2. The realization that I can make my fear my friend (#5 Lessen 29). My whole life has been driven by fear. And we know there are 3 possible reactions to fear: feign death, fight or flight. For me it was the "flight". But of course, fear is not healthy fuel. To making fear my friend I had even read a book about it (Anxiety my best friend by Alexander Huber), but he had a slightly different approach, namely fear as the "warner", as the intuition that warns of danger. That wasn't quite my issue and so I couldn't really implement it.
But now, as Steven Kotler described it, it was suddenly crystal clear. And immediately I had an image of my fear in my mind, just as I had visualized my inner bastard for years. And she was a pitiable creature: emaciated, torn, skinny, withered, distorted. And although she was the one who almost threw me into the abyss, my protective instincts awoke immediately. I felt incredibly sorry for her and without really having to decide to make friends with her, I "took her with me". That feels very good. It was also interesting that she was so small and not scary at all.
A certain challenge was still the task with the weaknesses. First to ask others. I was a little afraid of the answers. At the same time, it was incredibly interesting to see who answered what. I myself realized that my biggest weakness right now is still talking to people about my business and that's something I can't practice once a week. I have to face that every day. I have already started today.
So all in all an incredible leap in my development and with a realization that is particularly important for me here and now: It was quiet easy. It's all done.
A huge thanks to Steve and his team.
I went into the quest with a certain amount of tension, worried about whether I would be able to complete it, as drained as I felt consistently.
I soon realized that it was good for me, that I was doing well and that my energy was growing.
The first confirmation was the pre-assessment test, because it showed me how far I had come already. What struck me as I filled it in was that I was extreme in my answers. Either fully yes or fully no. I.e. in some areas I had already come a long way, but there were some areas where it was still massively missing.
The first milestone was the flow blocker quiz. It was a 100% confirmation: Result: exhaustion. With a video with many good tips for improvement.
Probably the biggest step was the step-by-step development of the MTP through the two lists and finding out the overlaps. For the first time in my life, I've really managed to formulate a vision of an overarching goal that is really coherent, that feels right and worth being active for. The HHG are good too. Breaking it down into daily activities is a bit more difficult, because sometimes I don't quite know what is necessary to achieve the HHG. I'll work that out better.
Then came the part I dreaded the most: the grit training with exercises on Willpower, Endurance (#1), Mindset (#2), Best-Worst (#3), Weaknesses (#4 ), Fear (No5).
And I had two big insights:
1. I have been doing all the things suggested here for years. So none of that was a challenge at all. So at first I was disappointed. I was expecting to make a breakthrough here towards more energy - and now this.
But then came the great realization, relief and confirmation that a very big wish that had been cherished for some time had come true - namely: "Everything is already done!"
Only I had forgoten to regenerate and that was the reason for my burn out. And I've already made great strides in this direction over the last year and have also received additional good tips here in the quest.
2. The realization that I can make my fear my friend (#5 Lessen 29). My whole life has been driven by fear. And we know there are 3 possible reactions to fear: feign death, fight or flight. For me it was the "flight". But of course, fear is not healthy fuel. To making fear my friend I had even read a book about it (Anxiety my best friend by Alexander Huber), but he had a slightly different approach, namely fear as the "warner", as the intuition that warns of danger. That wasn't quite my issue and so I couldn't really implement it.
But now, as Steven Kotler described it, it was suddenly crystal clear. And immediately I had an image of my fear in my mind, just as I had visualized my inner bastard for years. And she was a pitiable creature: emaciated, torn, skinny, withered, distorted. And although she was the one who almost threw me into the abyss, my protective instincts awoke immediately. I felt incredibly sorry for her and without really having to decide to make friends with her, I "took her with me". That feels very good. It was also interesting that she was so small and not scary at all.
A certain challenge was still the task with the weaknesses. First to ask others. I was a little afraid of the answers. At the same time, it was incredibly interesting to see who answered what. I myself realized that my biggest weakness right now is still talking to people about my business and that's something I can't practice once a week. I have to face that every day. I have already started today.
So all in all an incredible leap in my development and with a realization that is particularly important for me here and now: It was quiet easy. It's all done.
A huge thanks to Steve and his team.