Having done the Money EQ quest, I can now see how profoundly dysfunctional my relationship with money has been. I could never hold on to it because, deep down, I resented all the struggle my family has gone through because of not having enough. I held money, or rather the lack of it, responsible for it.
My Dad is a man of principle and he did not subscribe to the communist party in Poland when I was a child, the consequence of which was no career prospects. Also, he’s a true academic and an idealist at heart, so it was a very straight forward decision for him. But we all felt the impact of the consequences.
As a child I made it mean that you couldn’t have principles you stood by and money. You had to choose.
As a mother I became a very efficient and organised ‘controller’ with sprinkles of ‘spender’. I had a real dilemma whether to do the quest or not because I’m in the middle if a very unfriendly divorce with no support whatsoever from my children’s father, and money is very tight. But then I decided that I had to look at my relationship with money precisely for that very reason, because I am committed to providing more than adequately for my children going forward. It was the best thing I could have done.
The most important outcome for me is a peace of mind and genuine confidence that Life has my back and that it will send what is needed my way when it is needed. Because of the divorce I was forced to quit my job recently and was left with no source of income and massive legal bills. Despite that I am able to relax and enjoy every little thing and appreciate all the goodness in my life. I am thankful for so much! And I can actually see the blessing in these circumstances, as it is an opportunity for me to realign with my higher purpose and to find a way to give my gift to the world. On the photo are me and my Dad, who taught me how important having principles and values is. My relationship with my parents has been transformed because of this quest.
Arigato Ken. Arigato all fellow students. ???