"I doubled my revenue and I reimbursed 11,000 USD of debt in one year"

I'm a French entrepreneur in China, but I used to be a wealthy expat for 8 years in Asia making 6 figures. 

I hated my job, and this definitely wasn't "happy money". As a result, the money kept burning through my fingers: I was the spender profile. Somehow I didn't feel I deserved that money, so unconsciously I was doing whatever I could to get rid of it as quickly as possible: spending lavish amounts in restaurants, designer brands, clothes... "Money came in but didn't stay".

8 years ago after a burnout I made the big scary jump to leave the corporate and start my own wellness business in Hong Kong and China. 

But because my attitude towards money hadn't changed, I started not only using up my savings very fast but also accumulating credit card debts with huge interest rates. 

This time the money wasn't spent on "stupid things", as I used it to build my business, but it was still burning faster than I wanted. I became the "worrier" money type. Making myself mentally and physically worried sick for money. 

Even when I had enough, I would still worry "what about if tomorrow it's not enough again", and the madness continued. I was the one creating that unbearable scarcity in my life. No one else did. 

In 2017 I contemplated suicide: I had used up ALL my savings, I had accumulated 15,000 USD of credit card debt, the bank was threatening me to block my last credit card, I didn't know how to pay rent and had less than 5 dollars of cash to eat, with a deep feeling of failure and shame. 

The ironic thing was that my products were successful in China, people liked my brand, and my area of business was booming in Asia. So why? I decided to ask the help of a Millionaire y friend in Switzerland. I asked her to lend me 16K USD just to cover my credit card debt and start fresh again. She accepted. I got the money, I remember I received it in a total state of scarcity: with shame, fear (that it would go too fast) and guilt. I did not even take time to celebrate: I made the transfer very quickly to cover the debt with a knot in my stomach (I didn't know "arigato out" unfortunately) and didn't do anything special to mark the end of my debt. 

I thought it would be the end of my troubles, but it wasn't. 

In less than a year, I'm ashamed to say I piled up credit card debts again to the exact same amount before my friend had lent me money: 15K USD. You would think "this woman is totally irresponsible, can't she control herself from spending". But the crazy thing is this: this money just went to survival. Food and rent and keeping myself barely afloat. I didn't buy anything, I didn't go on a holiday, I didn't treat myself. This was the giant slap in my face to realize my problem is not about money. It's about my attitude towards it. My wounding and my unconscious self-sabotaging. If money was the solution, then my friend loan would have solved it and it didn't.

This is when I started looking for solutions.

When you ask help, it comes. It first took the form of Deepak Chopra - 21 days of the abundance meditation program. It was very useful in making me realize my own negativity towards money, and my scarcity mindset. 

And then the Ken Honda program came to me in answer to my prayers. I had never heard before of the art of healing money wounds, and this resonated very deeply with me. 

I signed up thanks to the big discount offered, I remember going to the box where I had locked my last credit card, and saying to myself "this has to work". And what happened was extraordinary.

I took the quest for the first time in March 2020, so not even a year ago, and my reality has changed dramatically since then. I doubled my revenue (even with covid constraints). I reimbursed 11,000 USD of debt in one year. I increased my overall wellness and comfort but more than anything else: I stopped worrying about money. 

Thanks to the program, I learned to reprogram my mind more positively. I worked on my past wounds and identified them. I can't say the shift was instant, but week by week I learned to develop a more trusting, positive, abundant mindset, and money followed.

I could expand my business, move to a more comfortable home, repay almost all my debts (still working on it!) and even afford a bit of holiday and shopping. With a big gratitude in my heart this time. 

And then I decided to do the quest a second time in November this year (which I would warmly recommend to anyone having done it), because the content is so rich and profound that I feel I needed to go back to it.

As I was doing it for the second time, one day I went to a meditation class in my community. The Mindfulness coach came to me and literally, from nowhere, asked me this question: are you a rich person? Do you not need to work? I was totally caught by surprise, it was such an odd question. I don't know if it was something I was wearing, or simply energy emanating from me, but I took it as an external confirmation that something in me had changed. I felt wealthy, and as a result, people looked at me as being a wealthy woman. It was as simple as that. Everything was in my mind.

If you are reading this and still hesitating to take the course, I can't encourage you enough to go ahead and do it. this program is a true blessing. And your reality does start to shift instantly as you start doing the work, it's unbelievable.

As I finished doing the course for the 2d time, there is this exercise called "the stretchy sweater", where we need to visualize doubling / tripling our revenue. When I read my notes from the first quest, I was baffled to realise that I am now making what I wrote in January "would feel incredibly luxurious and prosperous". And so now I could stretch my money container further, and I'm so excited to see what happens in the coming few months.

Thank you so much Ken Honda, Scott W Mills, and the Mindvalley team for putting together such an invaluable content. It's the best happy money I have ever invested in my entire life. 

I can't believe so many people live in scarcity crushed by debts, not knowing there is a way out, and this quest is like Ken Honda taking us by the hand for a lovely walk in a blooming sakura park, saying: "look it's here. It was always there. Only you couldn't see. Now you can".