Before I came to join up with Mindvalley I was already experiencing some profound shifts in my consciousness and am indeed a very happy and peaceful person. I'm grateful every single day for the life I have and what I have achieved and experienced thus far. I can't recall ever really having a "victim" mindset but maybe I did. I certainly, for the most part, embraced certain aspects of the "culturescape". Working hard and saving HARD was one. While I have dabbled in self-improvement since my mid-twenties, it wasn't until my 40's and more so from 49 til now that I have really become more and more interested in bucking the status quo (starting with certain relationship choices and more significantly, going wholeheartedly Vegan at 50.. that has been the single most profoundly positive action of my life thus far).
But while I have achieved so much and am so happy I have long been aware there was two glaring omissions to where I felt strong and/or confident, namely LASTING and deeply mutually FASCINATING romantic partnerships and my desire to write as a main career. I moved north to warmer climates 7 months ago and from here have been more rapidly shifting closer and closer towards what I know is within my ability to create and live. It was part of my desire to come here and simplify...
I have been aware of Mindvalley for quite a long time but not felt drawn to doing anything with it until just the other day... I knew with certainty as I looked at a post this time, that it holds the key to my discovery of the unlimited potential to achieve what I want as a creative and to catapult my confidence in my WORTH as a magnificent human being who has been holding out for an EXTRAORDINARY partner (all or nothing for me!) for 8 years! Before I had been questioning myself.. was I being delusional about the type of partner I could possibly expect "as me"? BUT...to feel like and BE a writer in the full sense of the word is what I want most of what I currently don't have in my life. More than if I do or don't have a partner to be honest. Creativity and how it moves my soul is what has been lighting me up for a long long time. Meditation, yoga, rest, nature, beauty, contentment, movement, music, whole plant foods, simplicity, gratitude... All these things have also evolved for me these past 8 years...bringing me here to this place. Ready to go next level. I feel so ready! There's so much peace and joy in every single one of them... And now they’ve all tumbled together like playful puppies in the sun and poured themselves into me and through me... My “writing”, I have come to understand, just by taking these final steps toward beginning the "Be Extraordinary" quest, no longer represents something I put forth to be judged by....which is what I feared... My writing is me showing up fully in the world. It is my freedom. Previously I have viewed MY writing as a “product” i need to make, package and offer up, something that will be deemed worthy or not by “others”... and in such judgment, so would I therefore be judged. But today, nearing 58 and more than 30 years since "knowing" I wanted to become a writer, I sit and I recognise fully that MY writing is as much me as my hair, my eyes, my breath..my life. And how it is, how it sits in the world, is really no one else business but IT'S own. I will write for the words that come forth purely because I need to honor that fire in me fully... not damp it down so others wont judge me. The words I will offer and how they are received and perceived is no longer of concern to me. Such freedom in that. But now the REAL work begins... fully aware that despite how I feel as I type these words there is 30 years of self-judgement that won't go away quietly! THAT is why I'm here! Thank you Mindvalley. My gratitude is deep and real and I'm excited to be on this journey of further discovery.
But while I have achieved so much and am so happy I have long been aware there was two glaring omissions to where I felt strong and/or confident, namely LASTING and deeply mutually FASCINATING romantic partnerships and my desire to write as a main career. I moved north to warmer climates 7 months ago and from here have been more rapidly shifting closer and closer towards what I know is within my ability to create and live. It was part of my desire to come here and simplify...
I have been aware of Mindvalley for quite a long time but not felt drawn to doing anything with it until just the other day... I knew with certainty as I looked at a post this time, that it holds the key to my discovery of the unlimited potential to achieve what I want as a creative and to catapult my confidence in my WORTH as a magnificent human being who has been holding out for an EXTRAORDINARY partner (all or nothing for me!) for 8 years! Before I had been questioning myself.. was I being delusional about the type of partner I could possibly expect "as me"? BUT...to feel like and BE a writer in the full sense of the word is what I want most of what I currently don't have in my life. More than if I do or don't have a partner to be honest. Creativity and how it moves my soul is what has been lighting me up for a long long time. Meditation, yoga, rest, nature, beauty, contentment, movement, music, whole plant foods, simplicity, gratitude... All these things have also evolved for me these past 8 years...bringing me here to this place. Ready to go next level. I feel so ready! There's so much peace and joy in every single one of them... And now they’ve all tumbled together like playful puppies in the sun and poured themselves into me and through me... My “writing”, I have come to understand, just by taking these final steps toward beginning the "Be Extraordinary" quest, no longer represents something I put forth to be judged by....which is what I feared... My writing is me showing up fully in the world. It is my freedom. Previously I have viewed MY writing as a “product” i need to make, package and offer up, something that will be deemed worthy or not by “others”... and in such judgment, so would I therefore be judged. But today, nearing 58 and more than 30 years since "knowing" I wanted to become a writer, I sit and I recognise fully that MY writing is as much me as my hair, my eyes, my breath..my life. And how it is, how it sits in the world, is really no one else business but IT'S own. I will write for the words that come forth purely because I need to honor that fire in me fully... not damp it down so others wont judge me. The words I will offer and how they are received and perceived is no longer of concern to me. Such freedom in that. But now the REAL work begins... fully aware that despite how I feel as I type these words there is 30 years of self-judgement that won't go away quietly! THAT is why I'm here! Thank you Mindvalley. My gratitude is deep and real and I'm excited to be on this journey of further discovery.
