I went from there on to many many courses over the years and always learned something that propelled my life forward. The thing was, I never felt my life was where I wanted it to be. I kept making mistakes and I kept feeling a certain way that I knew didn't serve me well. Also, no matter my circle of friends, I was most often the only one at my spiritual level, which was fine, because I got to express my feelings and help my friends along their quest and it really was a win/win for me; but I never had someone personally that could do that for me.
I had a marriage end to someone I didn't like. I was truly a terrible wife (I can laugh about it now) then I let a 4 year relationship end, without hard feelings and then I met a woman I fell head over heels in love with. She was 17 years my junior and I taught her everything I knew and then one day she left me for someone 14 years younger and took everything I had taught her and taught her new wife. I allowed this to destroy me for a very long time. This happened in 2010 and today, in 2020, I have only had 2 very short term relationships with women and none with a man. Today, I am quite happy the way my life is, in fact I really do love where I'm at.
I'm still on the learning path and am excited to reach Level 3 and then transcend to level 4, becoming extraordinary. I plan on living a happy and healthy existence for at least another 30 years. I go back 30 years and realize all of the things that have happened to me over that time. At least 2 lifetimes and I'm thrilled to be able to have another lifetime of existence. I often say that I don't need or require another human being to complete me. I live with my 37-year-old son, his wife and their daughter, my granddaughter. We are a community. My son and I work together, 5 days a week and I help raise my granddaughter and absolutely love it. We cook together, go out together, vacation together. I can't imagine a better life. I am healthy and happy. I will continue to move forward, learning new practices, becoming a more clear and conscious human being. I didn't realize there were 4 levels of consciousness. I am at level 2 and now that I am being taught how to go from level 2 to level 3, that is what I will work on every day. I am very grateful for this community and for the instructors doing Quests. Thank you and I look forward to learning every day.