Although I often believe in letting it go and letting it happen, this quest has helped me understand that by loading that responsibility on the universe, I was trying to remain a child who needed a parent to look after me. The quest has showed me that aha moment, that magician has been in me all this time and l must take control first.
l used to tell my friends why on earth we do not want what we want for our children or people we love for ourselves as well. Now l want it all for myself because l deserve it all.
The quest came right after an abrupt breakup which still does not make sense to me. If everything happens for a reason, so did this. I found myself struggling with an inner chat, telling me ‘’I am not good enough. I am flawed. When my cover is blown, I am bound to be dumped’’.
Marisa showed me that I am not that child anymore who was made to believe that way. It is a thing of a past now. People choose to move on. We grow out of relationships and it is perfectly ok. This is just an opportunity to find another person who will appreciate a relationship with a guy like me.
l am almost flirting with myself, saying it is such a joy to watch the way l live my life, how l enrich it and come up with ideas, how l make decisions and even how I talk and go about my business daily and more. I deserve better and better is easily attainable.
l am no longer a victim of my brain. Marisa has taught us how some very simple and fun tools can come to our aid.
This is the best investment ever!