Before Holobody I was years into battling an auto-immune condition, massive overtraining following a bodybuilding competition-style lifestyle years in and years out, super stressed all the time, and had a completely disconnected and punishing relationship with my body due to years of masking emotional trauma. I felt hopeless, desperate and knew that I could not continue living life this way and had to make a change. I also felt like a phony being in the nutrition, health and wellness industry but not being able to "look" the part because I looked fit on the outside but the inside was so far from it.
I was called to join Holobody for two main reasons: (1) to finally find the missing “link” to my health puzzle and (2) to do work the fulfills me on a deep level and transforms lives. Firstly, now after completing the Holobody program I was grateful to have found the missing link(s) in my health puzzle: Connection & Purpose, BodyTalks and Inner Stillness. There truly is power in practicing deep connection with others on a similar path as you and feeling loved and heard just as you are. Through this I realized that I could check all the boxes in my fitness regimen, make the perfect meals, execute my training to perfection everyday without fail, be hyper-disciplined and dare I say close to my idea of “perfection” and still be unsatisfied, unhappy and unfulfilled because there is a lack of meaning in creating the “perfect physique.” I had the discovery that creating a body that is aesthetically pleasing means nothing if it does not impact one soul or transforms someone else’s life and the has a positive impact on the course of humanity. Holo-body allowed me to tap into the superhero in me and harness my superpower of sensitivity. My sensitivity was something that I was always ashamed of and hid from the world, little did I know it was the missing element that would change my life because it has even me the ability to have a much heightened senses, presence and be able to see life from a much wiser and wider perspective. For most of my life I was probably the most physically fit and strongest person in the room but behind that mask was a broken and super sensitive ball of mis-managed emotions that I was too afraid to share with anyone. I wondered why my relationships had suffered and realized it was because I was afraid to show love or any emotion in fear of getting hurt or betrayed. Sensitivity has impacted all aspects of my life such as nutrition(food sensitivities), fitness (hyper-inflammation), external skin (reacting to environment, chemicals, etc), relationships (experiencing emotions more deeply than others whether good or bad), etc. Now, I wear my sensitivity on my sleeve harnessing the superpower that it is and using my powers for good in developing deeper connections, wisdom and life experiences that I can use to transform the lives of others. The BodyTalks are truly transformative and have helped me develop a trusting and loving relationship with my body as I learn to speak its own language. I have learned that it is vital for me to be my body’s interpreter, and be able to make decisions from an informed place based on the biofeedback that my body gives me throughout the day. Through that BodyTalks I was able to truly be grateful for all the little BIG things that my body does for me on a daily basis just to sustain life and I have developed such a trust and appreciation that my body loves and protects me at all times. Lastly, inner stillness was another profound discovery that drastically changed my life. Before Holobody I was super stressed all the time and afraid to truly sit with myself due to all the trauma that I have experienced from childhood and throughout my life; I was afraid of what would come up through that silence and sitting with myself. And even though I was doing “healthy” things to combat stress such as yoga and meditation, I never truly felt that sense of peace within. It was through Holobody that I realized that mastering inner stillness does not always look like the typical stereotype of the Budda with his eyes closed meditating but rather the same effects of meditation for me was achieved through making my workouts everyday more meditative and a secondary benefit that came from this was strengthening my relationship and communication with my body and developing inner peace and focus. Through mastering inner stillness and reconnecting to my own body, I have been able to connect with nourishing relationships in my life that fill me up.
Second, upon starting Holobody, I had just made the bold decision to quit the full-time job I had at the time making a decent income and jumping into the unknown of the future. It was the first time in my life that I had finally chosen myself. I decided to prioritize and value my needs of having purposeful work and deep connection which I was not getting at my previous job. I knew it was a drastic jump but I had no choice but to choose myself and my happiness. Work being a huge part of my life taking up most of my time and something I enjoy, I knew I had to find purposeful work that filled up my cup everyday instead of draining it so that I can not only make a living but also sustain it overtime. Holobody allowed me to make this a reality and give me the confidence that I can build my own business and do truly rewarding work everyday. In addition, after experiencing even deeper and profound healing I got inspired to write my first official book compounding my battles with auto-immune condition and the lessons I have learned from it and looking forward to publishing it in 2023.
I am beyond grateful for being able to create the greatest internal transformation of my life and discovering that true health radiates from the inside out. In addition, I do not have enough words to describe how impactful the lovely connections and Holobody tribe have been throughout this journey. I was truly blessed with gems along the way that truly allowed me to see parts of myself that I have never seen before and guide me through deep layers of healing that I would not have been able to accomplish alone. I am looking forward to a lifetime of Holobody and being the superhero for others in need of the same healing.