"This program has helped me in so many ways"

I am a 30 year old woman from a small city called Lucknow in Uttarpradesh, India. I moved to Bombay 7 years back with a law degree in hand with no usual lawyers connections or network. In the 7 years I achieved a lot of things my seniors appreciation, respect of my colleagues and peers for the human rights work I did. however, last two years have been the most devastating for me as I went into independent practice leaving the law firm I was at. In city like Mumbai a first generation female lawyer could be difficult. I took the challenge and I was able to accomplish amazing things but it took everything from me. My relationships, My social life, my happiness everything. I was not able to pin on why was I so unhappy even though I was doing well by so standards of so many people. My peers told me that I motivated and inspired them but only I knew how depressed I was. I started drinking...I gained so much weight couldn't carry myself, developed a muscle tear in my knees, I looked Iike a disaster and I threw my frustration at everyone around me. In 2018 I had an abortion. I sought counselling, I did lot of meditation and lot of work to help myself out of the pain, shame and guilt and I wanted to end my life. I had great support from my siblings through it yet something felt off. I had no hope left in me. I know the answer now. Due to Covid I had to stop everything and I could really see the reasons for my unhappiness and why I was so unfulfilled. I didn't realise that I had nothing in my life except for my work. No relationships, no spiritual path...I was so unfulfilled as a person. finally my sister suggested me this course who is also a Lifebook graduate. I can't begin to explain how this course came into my life at such a opportune time. It made me realise how much I am missing out on life. How no matter how much I achieve in my career I will never be happy and most importantly it opened my eyes to all the other aspects which I would have never thought of ever. This program has helped me in so many ways. It has given me so much to look forward to. It has given me hope! I love you so much Missy and John. You are great mentors. A thank you is not enough to show my gratitude towards you. You really have given me a lot of strength and I now feel I am capable of pulling myself out of any situation and become a better me each day.