Before Lifebook, I had a dream, a notion rather than a vision. …(this is how the first part of my story began but it was submitted in error halfway through because I hit return instead of shift-return, so here’s the happy ending in this next section)
In the last week, I have guided my son and nursed his beloved little dog through to her death, a heart-breaking process because she was such a special little animal that I’ve based my first plot around her character. During this week, I was also told (a) that I was losing 100% of my salary, not 30% as of end February, and (b) that I may have a heart condition which would impact my health and fitness and the leisure activities including kitesurfing, taekwondo and flying trapeze that keeps me feeling like I’m alive. I also finished Lifebook and my score went from 103 to 118 with spirituality being the key area of focus in both. My Life Vision score went from 116 to 138. My teacher on a course I’m doing to become an Intuitive Life Coach said of my redundancy: “Congratulations, now you can get on with the writing.” Oh, I can see that, but I don’t feel it. I’m frickin’ scared. I’ve only just got myself a house after a long period as a sofa surfer during my divorce, which is how I ended up in Egypt. I need that $500 back more than before. And yet…My life vision is clear. During the guided visualisation I saw myself in Los Angeles having THE BEST fun collaborating with an animator, telling the stories that kids need to understand with lots of laughs. I felt it. Can I get there with the information I have so far? Maybe…
I think I survived school by daydreaming, pretty much from the start. It didn’t gain me popularity with any teachers, but I needed somewhere to go because I wasn’t ideally suited to a standard education (not many of us are), so that became a cycle of escape. I was in trouble so often that I spent my whole life feeling stupid despite decent academic achievement and a successful career as a journalist then copywriter. None of my friends could believe this but the chorus of all the songs in my head was “I can’t”, despite all the evidence to the contrary.
Since Lifebook, I’ve developed some habits including reading mindfully for the ten minutes a day that it takes to drink my morning coffee. This week, I found Eckhart Tolle saying in The Power of Now that inspiration comes in the gaps between thoughts. How about that? Daydreaming is valuable, and all the trouble it got me in is what made me the person I am, with the motivation I’ve got to make life better for other kids. In a fun way.
As well as a long list of strategies from the 12 categories, I have done a mind map of all my potential sources of income. Every one of them (except the lottery, that’s got to be in the mix, right?) takes me away from my life purpose: writing these movie-books. All my efforts to find/create/reallocate time to writing haven’t been sufficient to achieve the goal of getting it done.
During Lifebook, I’ve come to understand that my extensive experience in journalism and copywriting is valuable to other people. I’ve flipped it in my mind from something I need to grind out to get much-needed money, to something that I can joyfully and easily contribute for the benefit of others, which has great value. I am profoundly grateful for that insight. But it ain’t my life purpose.
I once read that disaster and opportunity are the same little squiggle in Chinese calligraphy. It’s not true, but I love the idea still. Zero income is a disaster. Can I make it an opportunity? Dying of a heart attack before I get at least one movie on a screen, now THAT is a disaster which has no opportunity on the flipside. I need to get it done, and soon. I’m thinking like a Lifebooker now.
The question is whether I can get it done without losing my home – i.e., find a way to carry on earning and find the time to carry on writing. Or get myself to a place where losing the house doesn’t seem like a big deal – i.e., a step back in order to leap forward. I’m sure either one is possible, and the first is preferable. I just don’t know yet which one to choose and how to get there.
Can I do it alone or do I need to give up the $500 for Mastery? Thanks to Lifebook I now know I’m resourceful, determined, smart. But the fact remains that I still haven’t found more hours in the day to write. It sounds like Mastery could seriously move me forward, and right now I would definitely appreciate that helping hand.
It’s been a tough week. I’m going to take a day or two to consider everything. But it’s just like Jon and Missy said on the graduation call, my life has already changed, I have already changed down to my DNA because I’ve done the thinking required in Lifebook online.
So thank you, sincerely, for the idea of the accountability payment, because it truly does make a person accountable to themselves, and the outcome is all kinds of good.
In the last week, I have guided my son and nursed his beloved little dog through to her death, a heart-breaking process because she was such a special little animal that I’ve based my first plot around her character. During this week, I was also told (a) that I was losing 100% of my salary, not 30% as of end February, and (b) that I may have a heart condition which would impact my health and fitness and the leisure activities including kitesurfing, taekwondo and flying trapeze that keeps me feeling like I’m alive. I also finished Lifebook and my score went from 103 to 118 with spirituality being the key area of focus in both. My Life Vision score went from 116 to 138. My teacher on a course I’m doing to become an Intuitive Life Coach said of my redundancy: “Congratulations, now you can get on with the writing.” Oh, I can see that, but I don’t feel it. I’m frickin’ scared. I’ve only just got myself a house after a long period as a sofa surfer during my divorce, which is how I ended up in Egypt. I need that $500 back more than before. And yet…My life vision is clear. During the guided visualisation I saw myself in Los Angeles having THE BEST fun collaborating with an animator, telling the stories that kids need to understand with lots of laughs. I felt it. Can I get there with the information I have so far? Maybe…
I think I survived school by daydreaming, pretty much from the start. It didn’t gain me popularity with any teachers, but I needed somewhere to go because I wasn’t ideally suited to a standard education (not many of us are), so that became a cycle of escape. I was in trouble so often that I spent my whole life feeling stupid despite decent academic achievement and a successful career as a journalist then copywriter. None of my friends could believe this but the chorus of all the songs in my head was “I can’t”, despite all the evidence to the contrary.
Since Lifebook, I’ve developed some habits including reading mindfully for the ten minutes a day that it takes to drink my morning coffee. This week, I found Eckhart Tolle saying in The Power of Now that inspiration comes in the gaps between thoughts. How about that? Daydreaming is valuable, and all the trouble it got me in is what made me the person I am, with the motivation I’ve got to make life better for other kids. In a fun way.
As well as a long list of strategies from the 12 categories, I have done a mind map of all my potential sources of income. Every one of them (except the lottery, that’s got to be in the mix, right?) takes me away from my life purpose: writing these movie-books. All my efforts to find/create/reallocate time to writing haven’t been sufficient to achieve the goal of getting it done.
During Lifebook, I’ve come to understand that my extensive experience in journalism and copywriting is valuable to other people. I’ve flipped it in my mind from something I need to grind out to get much-needed money, to something that I can joyfully and easily contribute for the benefit of others, which has great value. I am profoundly grateful for that insight. But it ain’t my life purpose.
I once read that disaster and opportunity are the same little squiggle in Chinese calligraphy. It’s not true, but I love the idea still. Zero income is a disaster. Can I make it an opportunity? Dying of a heart attack before I get at least one movie on a screen, now THAT is a disaster which has no opportunity on the flipside. I need to get it done, and soon. I’m thinking like a Lifebooker now.
The question is whether I can get it done without losing my home – i.e., find a way to carry on earning and find the time to carry on writing. Or get myself to a place where losing the house doesn’t seem like a big deal – i.e., a step back in order to leap forward. I’m sure either one is possible, and the first is preferable. I just don’t know yet which one to choose and how to get there.
Can I do it alone or do I need to give up the $500 for Mastery? Thanks to Lifebook I now know I’m resourceful, determined, smart. But the fact remains that I still haven’t found more hours in the day to write. It sounds like Mastery could seriously move me forward, and right now I would definitely appreciate that helping hand.
It’s been a tough week. I’m going to take a day or two to consider everything. But it’s just like Jon and Missy said on the graduation call, my life has already changed, I have already changed down to my DNA because I’ve done the thinking required in Lifebook online.
So thank you, sincerely, for the idea of the accountability payment, because it truly does make a person accountable to themselves, and the outcome is all kinds of good.