"I am at the start of this program, it is my first day"

I am at the start of this program, it is my first day. Throughout my whole life, I've sensed a pull. A pull towards something greater than myself, a pull towards something that I cant explain, cant describe and cant quite put my finger on. I've had success in the modelling industry, but never felt as if I fit in. So, I started writing. I started writing, and writing, and writing some more. I wrote children's books, literary fiction and handbooks for young adults. Two of which are being published by Austin Macauley presently. But there is still this pull. This pull towards something greater than myself, a pull towards something that I cant quite explain, cant describe and cant put my finger on. I'd like to find out what it is, and I intend to.