To be totally honest, I'm a little bit behind on the daily tasks & even if I listen to the videos every day and think a lot about how I behave and act, I have felt like I'm failing in doing what I need to do to get results in my parenting.
But!!! Today, when we had lunch at our home, my 6-year-old daughter looked at me and said;
-Mummy, you haven't been angry for so long now & it has been so nice being home with you lately because of that!
I just looked at her with a big smile & said thank you, my dear!
I felt SO HAPPY inside because that was exactly what I needed to hear at that moment!
Later, in the evening, when we were lying in bed trying to get to sleep, she turned around, looked at me and said ''mommy, this day has been the best day ever cause no one has been screaming or yelling or being angry today'' and I really saw how her eyes were shining of true happiness. I got it confirmed not just one time, but twice!
So thank you to the conscious pause - it is just amazing!! Instead of reacting directly, I take some time to breathe. And then respond, in a much lighter way.
Another way for me to not react in anger has been to think about my feelings like a wave passing by or a train, rolling by. Let them pass. Just watch! Then speak! Or act.
It seems like it's working better than I thought!!