"I believe that healing my chakras will clear the blocks that I only touched on through my own spiritual work"

In my early 30’s, I experienced a rather intense unraveling of who I thought I was. It seemed to be triggered when I relocated to a new city for a job. Even as I was transitioning, making a brief stop in my hometown, I was overwhelmed by heavy grief. I was crying all the time and just could not seem to handle stress well. My once career-driven, independent, social self was gone. I just couldn’t get it together. A short time after that, I began to feel dissociated, disoriented, depressed and numb. The trauma from my formative years came up in memory, pretty regularly, my relationships with my family became increasingly strained. Along with that, my sense of security was completely lost. It was the same feeling I experienced when my maternal Grandmother died, a few years prior. She was my person and when she passed away, I felt alone in the world. Fast forward, to my mid 30’s, I began to take control, exploring different spiritual modalities. Growing up in a religious, Christian family, I wanted to see what was to this God concept that had been pressed upon. I felt connected to something greater than me, but I didn’t know what it was. From there, a beautiful path of self-discovery unfolded. It was the best I ever in my life. I changed my diet, ran my first 5k, and spent many, many hours in natural settings. I found my intuitive side, using tools like tarot and oracle cards. I did readings. The moon cycles began to play a pivotal role in my goal setting. All sorts of cosmic wonder took place and still influences me today. My greatest challenge is healing from past trauma. My familial experience, since I was a small child has been peppered with chaos off and on. Not a lot of love and affection takes place and that’s always how it’s always been. Generational trauma stretches pretty far back. Lots of abandonment, various types of abuse, victimhood, mistrust, and self-hate are among the patterns I see. I’ve lived with anxiety and depression my whole life and recently discovered that I am affected by ADHD. I have big dreams that I’ve yet to fulfill, as I have made attempts, but they are not seen to fruition. I would love to become an entrepreneur, using my creative talents and business skills I have learned along the way. I believe that healing my chakras will clear the blocks that I only touched on through my own spiritual work. Perhaps I will see that great big life I visualize everyday. Namaste