I am 59 years old. So have come quite a long way in life. I have always been quite independent and felt that I knew what I wanted. I recall my dear mothers words so clearly. "God helps those who help themselves" This was an attitude that served me well through most of my young life.
I have been fortunate to be athletic since my childhood years, did fairly well at school, am creative in arts and problem solving and attractive to look at (I did not want to write this because vanity was always frowned upon!) I have a strong mind that once a goal is set, I pursue my goal with intention. I have always tried to prepare myself for what may lie ahead. What I may want to do later in life when I had no 9-5 job. One thing I was NOT prepared for was retrenchment. I loved my work as a Project Manager building retail stores for a large international clothing brand. I was an extension of the International office in Spain and had learnt so much about communication, presentation and an exceptionally high level of reporting. When the development in South Africa slowed and a few projects were cancelled, my employer of 12 years decided I was too expensive an asset to carry. It broke my heart. Before this happened, I had read a book by John Sanei, "What's your moonshot". John is an acquaintance of years back. He talks of the Victim mindset and has an amazing way with words. I was not going to let myself be the victim. The hardest thing was that I did not know what to fill my day with.
Whilst I was trying to figure out what I was going to do about an income, turning my other passions into generating income, I took on IM70.3 Triathlons with a vengeance. I was getting my daily happy hormone. So fatigued at night that I could only but have a good sleep. After two years I began to wonder if Triathlon was not just a distraction. I was running out of money. I dabbled in sports coaching. This is something that I still love to do but it does not pay very well in this country. Coaching myself to a success with triathlons, has given me me a certain confidence that I have something to share of value. During this time of re-building myself, a phrase that I detested since I considered that I have been building myself for 59 years, I came across Mindvalley. I became hooked as I realised that I still did not know what I was all about. I started this journey of understanding self by watching masterclass after masterclass! But then again one day I wondered if this was not a distraction from taking real action. Somehow I just could not stick to one thing and get it done. Then came the Quest! Habit of ferocity. Everything has changed. Nothing goes undone that can be achieved today. Habits are still not entrenched. Some resentment towards others still exist. I did the 6-phase meditation this past week. I can clearly say that it prepared me so well for sharing moments this past weekend with a man I resent. I have not spoken to him or seen him in a very long time. He has been in my forgiveness phase all week. On both days I bumped into him at venues where I involve myself with sports administration and coaching. He walked past me without making eye contact. I do hope that I can process this resentment as it will be in the way if I wish to involve myself in this pastime. Thank you Vishen for awakening me to a different reality!
I have been fortunate to be athletic since my childhood years, did fairly well at school, am creative in arts and problem solving and attractive to look at (I did not want to write this because vanity was always frowned upon!) I have a strong mind that once a goal is set, I pursue my goal with intention. I have always tried to prepare myself for what may lie ahead. What I may want to do later in life when I had no 9-5 job. One thing I was NOT prepared for was retrenchment. I loved my work as a Project Manager building retail stores for a large international clothing brand. I was an extension of the International office in Spain and had learnt so much about communication, presentation and an exceptionally high level of reporting. When the development in South Africa slowed and a few projects were cancelled, my employer of 12 years decided I was too expensive an asset to carry. It broke my heart. Before this happened, I had read a book by John Sanei, "What's your moonshot". John is an acquaintance of years back. He talks of the Victim mindset and has an amazing way with words. I was not going to let myself be the victim. The hardest thing was that I did not know what to fill my day with.
Whilst I was trying to figure out what I was going to do about an income, turning my other passions into generating income, I took on IM70.3 Triathlons with a vengeance. I was getting my daily happy hormone. So fatigued at night that I could only but have a good sleep. After two years I began to wonder if Triathlon was not just a distraction. I was running out of money. I dabbled in sports coaching. This is something that I still love to do but it does not pay very well in this country. Coaching myself to a success with triathlons, has given me me a certain confidence that I have something to share of value. During this time of re-building myself, a phrase that I detested since I considered that I have been building myself for 59 years, I came across Mindvalley. I became hooked as I realised that I still did not know what I was all about. I started this journey of understanding self by watching masterclass after masterclass! But then again one day I wondered if this was not a distraction from taking real action. Somehow I just could not stick to one thing and get it done. Then came the Quest! Habit of ferocity. Everything has changed. Nothing goes undone that can be achieved today. Habits are still not entrenched. Some resentment towards others still exist. I did the 6-phase meditation this past week. I can clearly say that it prepared me so well for sharing moments this past weekend with a man I resent. I have not spoken to him or seen him in a very long time. He has been in my forgiveness phase all week. On both days I bumped into him at venues where I involve myself with sports administration and coaching. He walked past me without making eye contact. I do hope that I can process this resentment as it will be in the way if I wish to involve myself in this pastime. Thank you Vishen for awakening me to a different reality!