"My goal by being a part of Be Extraordinary, is to find the way to Myself again"

I used to be a beaming person :) I got married at a very young age of 17 years old - it was my choice, i was in love with the man who is now my spouse. Things were going okay, there were ups and downs, but i was kind of happy, i had never thought of living differently, this was my life meant to be.. Until i met, 7 years after my marriage, at the age of 24, the one who is today my closest friend. When we met, there have been a such connection between us, we just kept talking to each other for 10 years. Meanwhile, i realized my attachment to him being stronger, and in 10 years i became a mother of 2 beautiful kids. Fighting against this strong feeling of my soul pushing me to him, and trying to keep my balance as i'm married, destroyed every single thing inside me. I was not able to look at people in their eyes, i feel uncomfortable to be taken in pics, and video calls are a real challenge.. Something has changed in the reflection my mind is giving to me about myself. And i want to heal from it. I want to be again that beaming person that i was before. I want to be connected with myself again. I'm still in touch with my friend, a bit less than before when we were fully connected with each other. But still, we know what's going on in each other's life. So that's my goal by being a part of Be Extraordinary, is to find the way to Myself again :)