I am afraid my story is not powerful. It is actually the trivial, everyday story of a working mum who tries to square work and family, overwhelmed, disoriented, not knowing which way to take.
The 7-day challenge really shook me. I realised I had turned it into this woman who does not know what she wants because she does not know herself, who doubts her future/faith, who generates stress instead of love, who is incapable of stopping (sitting still), who is clinging to what she wants (the opposite of non-attachment), who scatters her energy into things she resents (the opposite of devotion) and who is afraid of taking care of herself because she thinks this means depriving her family of her money, her time and her care (afraid of receiving). This is a pretty fundamental revelation after spending just 1 hour a day for just 7 days.
Something has changed in me, you see, something which I cannot name or describe. I am having the most wonderful Christmas with my family. I decided not to work during the holidays (looking for a job is a full-time occupation, you see, but I decided not to do it over the holidays season and instead spend time on myself and my family, even if I’ve been worrying a lot about money lately). I do not snap at my husband and my daughter because things do not work out as expected. I connected another mum to a teacher who I think can help her child. I cooked the New Year’s Eve dinner and shared it with another family returning a kind gesture. I invited my daughter’s friends over. And I have promised myself to meditate every single day - every morning, before everyone gets up, 10 minutes, in my study, on my chair, back upright, hands open. Because I am a person who cares about her well-being. Because my wellbeing has a a huge impact on the atmosphere at home, on my family and friends. And if this makes me a calmer, less anxious person, that’s great. But if it doesn’t and these are just 10 minutes of rest, that’s great, too.
These are small steps but I am certain that they are in the right direction. And while I do not have all the answers yet, I see things so much more clearly now. Thank you, Vishen, and thank you to the entire Mindvalley team for giving me this clarity. It feels like someone has finally pointed at a path in my exhausting wandering. It feels like experiencing a true wonder.
The question for me now is how do I sustain this clarity. I have signed up for the Complete Mastery Programme presentation and for the Lifebook live event. I am not sure I can afford any of this, you see. But I am certain these are the next small steps to reshaping my life. Drop by drop makes a river as they say in Bulgaria.
Merry Christmas, Mindvalley!
The 7-day challenge really shook me. I realised I had turned it into this woman who does not know what she wants because she does not know herself, who doubts her future/faith, who generates stress instead of love, who is incapable of stopping (sitting still), who is clinging to what she wants (the opposite of non-attachment), who scatters her energy into things she resents (the opposite of devotion) and who is afraid of taking care of herself because she thinks this means depriving her family of her money, her time and her care (afraid of receiving). This is a pretty fundamental revelation after spending just 1 hour a day for just 7 days.
Something has changed in me, you see, something which I cannot name or describe. I am having the most wonderful Christmas with my family. I decided not to work during the holidays (looking for a job is a full-time occupation, you see, but I decided not to do it over the holidays season and instead spend time on myself and my family, even if I’ve been worrying a lot about money lately). I do not snap at my husband and my daughter because things do not work out as expected. I connected another mum to a teacher who I think can help her child. I cooked the New Year’s Eve dinner and shared it with another family returning a kind gesture. I invited my daughter’s friends over. And I have promised myself to meditate every single day - every morning, before everyone gets up, 10 minutes, in my study, on my chair, back upright, hands open. Because I am a person who cares about her well-being. Because my wellbeing has a a huge impact on the atmosphere at home, on my family and friends. And if this makes me a calmer, less anxious person, that’s great. But if it doesn’t and these are just 10 minutes of rest, that’s great, too.
These are small steps but I am certain that they are in the right direction. And while I do not have all the answers yet, I see things so much more clearly now. Thank you, Vishen, and thank you to the entire Mindvalley team for giving me this clarity. It feels like someone has finally pointed at a path in my exhausting wandering. It feels like experiencing a true wonder.
The question for me now is how do I sustain this clarity. I have signed up for the Complete Mastery Programme presentation and for the Lifebook live event. I am not sure I can afford any of this, you see. But I am certain these are the next small steps to reshaping my life. Drop by drop makes a river as they say in Bulgaria.
Merry Christmas, Mindvalley!