The other day, the day of faith, there was one statement that caught my attention: If you are looking for signs, that is immature faith. Something in me triggered it because I have been looking for signs and moments of serendipity my whole life. I like it, thinking about a specific sign or just waiting for one to appear as if by chance. It's a fun game for me. This game has kept me going many times so that I can still believe in the good things in life. That's why this statement basically threw me off. And that's why I couldn't let go of this question: if it's true that following signs is immature faith, how will it help me in my life going forward?
On the third day, the day of love, there were things that resonated more. I answered the question: why I absolutely love you? The answers made me feel a deep love. This realization was immediate: I love, I feel loved. It was grace. It didn't come from another person, it came through me. It reflected my energy. a very powerful moment.
The story about the seeds was the icing on the cake. I have exactly the same experience with my houseplants and also the flowers and trees in the garden. I speak to them with love and they grow quickly and are beautiful and healthy. I know it works.
I was very interested in Marisa Peer's story. With an open heart, I quickly realized that it was precisely such examples that I wanted to take as a role model. It was uplifting. This very evening I was sure, that my negative spiralling year of 2025 I am leaving behind me. And because discipline is a kind of self-love (which is my new motto), I put on my sneakers and went to work out after months of inactivity.
Yesterday, in a moment of stillness, during meditation, I realized why looking for signs represent immature faith. I found exactly the perspective on why this might be true. Which made me very happy because it correlates with another question I've been asking myself for a long time. Yes, I still have to incorporate it into my life, but this understanding will be a big breakthrough, I'm sure. I'm so grateful for this experience.