"I gave myself the opportunity to embrace all of this"

Starting Being Extra Ordinary. . . . likely came as part of this course: I lead a Zoom gathering, which became a meaningful experience in so many ways. I was completely, totally down on myself after the call for taking up so much time and feeling I lacked clarity. There were other inner dynamics at play within me that I don’t need to detail. . . . The whole jist was to come to a deeper self compassion; to gain self trust to ‘be myself’, and greater freedom! My heart opens like a gentle flower as I write. I did a melt down with xxxx and xxxx right after, which was the most wonderful thing I could have trusted to do. That honest experience of defeat, abnegation, self judgement, and tears in front of the two of them became the denouement. I gave myself the opportunity to embrace all of this, my humanness, many of my smaller selves in a deeper more genuine way. I did not realize an initiation that was going to take place for me!! Initiations are always a treasured surprise.