My awakening started Aug 2019, I was running a pub but everything I kept doing would go the opposite of what I was trying to do. Soon enough I realized something was pulling me from what I thought I was supposed to be doing.
Just before I got a huge promotion I said "No thank you" no matter how much money got put in front of me the words " no thank you" kept coming out of my mouth. I couldn't figure it out. I knew I had the skills to turn the bar around, even if it meant I had to fire everyone because they all drank on the job and went against the rules...but I also new I didn't want to work with alcohol any more, whether that was serving it daily or fighting it with my staff. I quit my job with no money in the bank and no job to go to.
I had no idea what I was doing or why. I dropped into Level 1 "Victim" hard, hitting it harder then ever before and it hit me many times before but not like this. Months I consumed of hurt and sadness, confusion and shame, guilt and fear. I had no idea what was going on but deep down I was feeling a pull. Sometimes a spiral pull but I hung on. My poor husband. He is truly my soul mate and healer.
A month before I quit the pub I brought in the medicine lady to come in and smudge. Hoping to smoke out anything that seems to be haunting the place. Strange bad energy ran the place or I had thought. Until later when I started working with her in Sept when I realize and believe that the Universe was talking to me...pushing me into the direction it wanted me to go in to. I am still unsure of that direction but I will say I have had so many amazing spiritual people, spiritual awaking moments come into my life this past year and a half since then.
Amazing things like Books falling off the shelves at customer's homes that are directed to me. Once I quit the pub I kept my self busy helping seniors getting there home and yards cleaned up or help down size. I become a service for my elderly customers on a personal level. I read more books in the past year then I have in my 47 years, I never meditated before and now I do it daily for 20 / 40 mins a day.
I smudge and pray daily and I take 1 to 2 hours out for myself daily. I now love being with my self and I cant seem to learn enough right now. I am defiantly on level 2 now (I think maybe even level 3) and learning to bend my realty and world. I am excited to get up (early) every day no matter if its a Monday or a Sunday.
I use to sleep unit 745/8 am before getting the kids rushed out the door for school and sleep until 10 or 11 on weekends every weekend if I wasn't working, (which I worked long hours before) now I get up at 630am daily, with excitement to start my day with meditation, stretching and reading first thing.
This year I received my level 2 in Bars from Access Conscience and level 1 Reiki, hoping to get level 2 soon. I finally know and believe I am a healer, and I want to continue to learn to heal myself, and be able to share the love and light to others one day. This is defiantly something I am looking forward to learning and doing daily. I love this new energy and love I have for life and want to continue to grow my vibration and level of understanding.
Just before I got a huge promotion I said "No thank you" no matter how much money got put in front of me the words " no thank you" kept coming out of my mouth. I couldn't figure it out. I knew I had the skills to turn the bar around, even if it meant I had to fire everyone because they all drank on the job and went against the rules...but I also new I didn't want to work with alcohol any more, whether that was serving it daily or fighting it with my staff. I quit my job with no money in the bank and no job to go to.
I had no idea what I was doing or why. I dropped into Level 1 "Victim" hard, hitting it harder then ever before and it hit me many times before but not like this. Months I consumed of hurt and sadness, confusion and shame, guilt and fear. I had no idea what was going on but deep down I was feeling a pull. Sometimes a spiral pull but I hung on. My poor husband. He is truly my soul mate and healer.
A month before I quit the pub I brought in the medicine lady to come in and smudge. Hoping to smoke out anything that seems to be haunting the place. Strange bad energy ran the place or I had thought. Until later when I started working with her in Sept when I realize and believe that the Universe was talking to me...pushing me into the direction it wanted me to go in to. I am still unsure of that direction but I will say I have had so many amazing spiritual people, spiritual awaking moments come into my life this past year and a half since then.
Amazing things like Books falling off the shelves at customer's homes that are directed to me. Once I quit the pub I kept my self busy helping seniors getting there home and yards cleaned up or help down size. I become a service for my elderly customers on a personal level. I read more books in the past year then I have in my 47 years, I never meditated before and now I do it daily for 20 / 40 mins a day.
I smudge and pray daily and I take 1 to 2 hours out for myself daily. I now love being with my self and I cant seem to learn enough right now. I am defiantly on level 2 now (I think maybe even level 3) and learning to bend my realty and world. I am excited to get up (early) every day no matter if its a Monday or a Sunday.
I use to sleep unit 745/8 am before getting the kids rushed out the door for school and sleep until 10 or 11 on weekends every weekend if I wasn't working, (which I worked long hours before) now I get up at 630am daily, with excitement to start my day with meditation, stretching and reading first thing.
This year I received my level 2 in Bars from Access Conscience and level 1 Reiki, hoping to get level 2 soon. I finally know and believe I am a healer, and I want to continue to learn to heal myself, and be able to share the love and light to others one day. This is defiantly something I am looking forward to learning and doing daily. I love this new energy and love I have for life and want to continue to grow my vibration and level of understanding.