"I am grateful and blessed beyond words."

I was awakened the hardest way ever. In 2003 my first stepson died tragically at the young age of 21 in an industrial accident. He left for work on Dec 16th and never came home again. Four months later my beloved Grandmother died in Germany and I had the honor to accompany her journey to the other side for a whole month before returning back to Canada where I now live. She waited for me and the fact that she trusted me to be by her side during her transition showed me that there are greater powers at play in the universe and that there is a plan. Another four months afterwards I had an adverse reaction during an elective surgery, which resulted in me loosing all my strength and I ended up bedridden for two years. At some point of the illness I weighed only 95 lbs and had to buy clothes in the kids section. Nobody could help me and nobody knew what happened to me. So I set out to heal myself. I became a professional patient but eventually realized that doctors did not have the answers. I kept prodding, looking everywhere, but everyone told me a different story of what happened and nobody had lasting solutions. I had so much pain - physical, mental, emotional pain that would not cease. So I decided to enrol in Energy Healing and took classes laying on the floor because I could not sit or stand due to pain. That’s when things changed. I was no longer the victim, but had a method to change my circumstances. Eventually I completed a degree in Psychology from UBC in Vancouver and started taking classes in astrology. To me, astrology and especially psychological astrology were an extension of regular psychology and my goal was to become one of the world’s leading medical and psychological astrologers - a person who understood that we come with a blueprint of gifts that are forged by lessons, opportunities, challenges and trials if we choose to accept them and are willing to grow. Oddly enough, I found out that my Grandmother’s brother had been an astrological astrologer in Berlin during WW2. You cannot make this up and somehow this must run in my genetic lineage, because it’s a very strange and unusual profession to have. So I studied with the world’s leading astrologers in my field, all the while understanding myself and my challenges more and more. During this time I also helped take care of people who were elderly and who were dying and with each death I understood that only love remains and that if we live a life devoid of love we have nothing to carry forward with us when we leave this planet ourselves. I cared for my mother-in-law and the day after her passing in January of 2011, I had to tell my husband that his second son had passed away from an accidental overdose due to intense grief over loosing his Grandmother. My husband was on his way to the funeral home and the moment will be etched in my mind forever when I had to give him the news. We travelled from one funeral across the country to the next. That event devastated my husband and eventually I became his caregiver as well. His addiction to cigarettes as a method to cope with his grief and emotions destroyed his lungs, so that after having been airlifted by helicopter to the ICU from respiratory failure, he ended up in a care home completely bedridden for one more year. That year was the most precious of our 25 year marriage and filled with love and unconditional acceptance. When he passed away I understood through watching our respective astrology charts that there is divine timing and once again was in awe of the perfection of the universe. However, the medical system let him down badly and his death was botched and he passed away with tremendous suffering. Having to watch all this activated my PTSD from the kids dying and I had to walk away from it. My husband and I had discussed his passing in great detail and he told me that I could walk away at any moment if things got too tough to handle. When someone had to restrain him while he seized due to lack of sedation I walked out. He passed two hours later and I had to leave, because I wanted to remember him the way he was. I knew I had his blessings. But because of this and other tragic events, his family decided to shun me instead and when he was gone I had nobody. Nobody came to my aid except for two friends. I thought I would lose my mind. I spent Christmas all alone. No phone all, nothing. Everyone projected their own anger about loosing my husband onto me. It was truly devastating, but I understood that toxic people were being removed from my life for a reason and that I had to grow from this to become a much better version of myself. Yet, this time I decided to channel my emotions constructively. I was no longer a victim, but could use the devastation of the incident to make a larger difference in our area and prevent similar deaths from happening. In working with some local physicians we created a palliative care manual that is dedicated to the memory of my husband and is in circulation now across the province of Saskatchewan, Canada as a resource for all palliative care patients and their families. Four months after my husband’s passing, my father died from Cancer in Germany. All my family was over there, taking care of him, so I had no support from them either. In fact I was completely alone, having lost everyone dear to me in life. But because I understood astrology, I understood what was happening and why I was going through such devastating events. So I used my knowledge and understanding to grow and define myself as a person and to reach out in order to make a difference to others. After giving myself time to really grieve, I am now still training in medical astrology and am currently mapping the emergence of the COVID-19 virus in the world astrologically, in the hopes of tracking its path so we can predict and plan epidemiologically where it will travel next. As a fluke, I applied to the Canadian Medical Association, who had formed a new initiative called the Patient Voice. They set policies for how physicians practice in Canada and interact with the Government to influence funding. It was the first time in 150 years since its inception that physicians were asking patients for advice and I somehow I was chosen to be a part of a 12 person group made of stellar and highly experienced patients. And even more so, I am grateful the CMA is open to hearing from us. Incidentally, my two paths have not merged yet. I am still two people with a foot in each area and that is why I am taking this course. I would like to fully and authentically be me and offer my gifts to the world. I know those gifts are real and bring great peace, but there is a misconception out there that astrologers are woo-woo and nuts, when all it really is is the scientific study and interpretation of celestial events. As above so below. I understand the why of the current outbreaks and know what changes need to be made, but a lot of the world is still stuck at Level 1, so it’ll take a bit more trauma to wake them up too. In April there is a Patient Congress in Scotland, where patients get to collaborate with the WHO and I would love to attend if I am meant to be there. We need to talk about stuff. The planet. Clean water, fresh air, non-toxic food and ideologies. And hopefully with the right leadership, together we can turn this Earthship around and allow healing to take place. That is why I put the Earth in my eyeball in the photo, showing I see what’s going on as a witness and that I must help to preserve and protect. In letting go of everything I previously felt of great importance in life, I was transported to higher and higher levels. One of my greatest teachers is Dr. David L. Hawkins, the author of many books, but my favourite one is “Letting Go”. It is only in letting go constantly that we create enough space for the universe to fill it with something greater and that was probably the biggest insight for me so far, But there is always more when you are on this journey of self-actualization, right? It was adversity, death, pain, struggle and a childhood filled with horrifying abuse, that set the stage for me to become who I am today and I would not change one moment of it. I do not regret a single tear, because I would not be who I am today. Because without it I would not love unconditionally and it’s the love in my heart for all of humanity that I will take with me when I get to leave this planet. Nothing else. Life is good and I am grateful and blessed beyond words. Namaste.