THE PURPOSE: To change my life for the better, to find the blocks in life and to be who the creator created me to be. Lived in the shadows of the spouse (who is male) married over 27 years, known him since the age of 4, when asked to get married I refused, but was pressured by him and others this would be a great relationship, it was physically and mentally abusive, and now, more mentally, the only reason the physical stopped because of a car accident over 18 years ago (sustained a TBI) so that stopped the physical, however, the mental continues in the most manipulative ways, currently started my own business, and the manipulation got worst with money, things, etc., being used to promise to do things, then, left with the feeling of not being able to accomplish it because you have to have materials and supplies, I find out I was being used for my energy and knowledge.
Life has always been the same, society praises him and condemns me, over 2 year ago certain feelings came up, found out I am lesbian, things did not and has not set well with people.
The spouse refuses to get divorced, does not want to separate, but prefer I stay in the house. The key to it, no job no money, all I have is this art room that is a wish, this is what he sees, keeping me in the wishing stage, that way I can't leave nor be successful. I never realized how someone could be cold and calculating.
I needed to find out were the feelings and knowing true, found out they were. Found out through using this, who I am, how I was program, and why when I say I want to be an artist, most of the time the dream was shot down, I found out, that is my true calling and found out what I am worth. I took a risk doing purchasing, because I only get the disability, I have to ask him for money and state why, I finally can see that this relationship is toxic and finding a strategy of how to leave it.
I heard some words of, the situation I'm in become strong where you are, it's powers, there is friction, then, I could see when I meditate on mantras, I feel powerful, soon as I feel powerful, the spouse comes in and begins to drain all the energy, very, very manipulative.
In what I do in the creative field, there is no support, most talk about the spouse and his greatness while, I'm seen as a third class citizens. I do the clearing and listen to it again and again, take notes, come up with strategies to earn money, what do I want out of life,
I would recommended it because, as soon as the clearing, things were changing immediately and still is.
The intuition has sparked and I can see things before and can handle them in a different way, it is amazing. You learn to listen to the body and where pain or issues are, amazing.
This event sparked me to write a book using the techniques but using my own style and life experience, the only thing, I need to be out of this situation when published, but I know it will happen, continue to take notes to add to it.
I think they are very positive, better than what I've come across, if I had not done this, I think the end result of my life would be something else, I ask the question to myself, do I want to go on the rest of my life like this? the answer is no, I don't, and where is my life and why are others entitle and not me, well I found the answers with Unlimited abundance,
Thank you for saving my life