I am a Safeguarding Nurse and have been working in the field for 8 years.
Before that I was a Health Visitor and before that a Nurse Midwife, and way before that a Massage therapist when I was home in Canada. After many attempts at trying to reach the next level in my career, I finally got that job I was hoping for. I was hired back at the Hospital in London (UK) where I had started my nursing career in the UK in 1996. I was soooo happy and excited! I enjoyed the buzz of working back in the Acute setting and learning the new job.
The team was fantastic and I was really doing well and making an excellent income. Then.......I had my first meeting with my manager 3 months into the job. I was expecting a 'so, how's it going? How are you settling in? Now let's get down to business. This is what I expect from you and what you can expect from me.' Instead, I got 'you're not working at the level you should be. You're out of your depth. I was assured you were an experienced Safeguarding Nurse and I'm gutted you're not what I expected.' (another manager hired me but retired before I started). This meeting completely blew me away!! I did not expect such a negative assessment. I disagreed with her but, she's the manager. I continued to work under these conditions, her randomly saying people were complaining about me but never could tell me who, or in what context..... She would set me up to fail, bend the truth basically she was bullying me. She also failed to follow guidelines and policies I finally decided to put in a formal grievance and am now working through the fall out. So...... I have been struggling with my confidence for the past number of months. I have taken 2 months off on sick leave because of work related stress. At some points, the anxiety of this job has invaded my thoughts 24 hours a day. It has disrupted my sleep, my appetite, my energy and I have no confidence left. I will also add that the whole team has been affected by the bullying approach of our manager. We are all suffering in our own way. Anyway, something had to change.
This will not define me!!
I saw this Masterclass on Mindvalley and it just felt right. Not only am I hoping this will help me in my career, but I am hoping to develop a more fulfilling life full of positive energy and love for everything and everyone. I am Blessing the Bully manager everyday and blessing my place of work and colleagues. This helps, but I was hoping it would have helped her move on!! (LOL) Instead, maybe I am the one who needs to move on. So here I am. Excited to learn, develop new skills and grow in love and life. Lets do this!!!