Breaking my wrist just before Christmas made me stay home for the holidays – and Vishen seven day webinar on the 7 Sacred States was like a special gift to make me feel less lonely.
I listened very carefully from day to day but each day had the feeling that something is missing: I've practiced manifestation since childhood, long before I new what I was doing, yet I never succeeded in my life. The men left me, my friends turned away when I faced difficulties and couldn't keep a job – no matter how much I liked it and how successful I was. But I kept on joining the classes every evening and even listened to them while travelling long distance. I felt something was still waiting for me.
Finally, on day 7, Vishen told his childhood story about feeling guilty for asking and receiving and I remembered how much I wanted a dog as a child but we lived in an apartment and my parents told me that is not a place for dogs. However, they let me having a dog at my grandmother's place in the countryside where there was a huge garden. But I couldn't move there, we had to live in the capital, so the dog I got at the beginning of the summer was taken away as the school started. It happened three years in a row until I didn't want to have a dog anymore. And as I remembered my story, I realised that must be the reason why I give up on things I most want and fear success as I am certain it will be taken away from me the moment I start being attached.
Yet, I am the fighter-type and seem to win the first battle as I opened my heart once again to a fury friend – for a start. <3
I listened very carefully from day to day but each day had the feeling that something is missing: I've practiced manifestation since childhood, long before I new what I was doing, yet I never succeeded in my life. The men left me, my friends turned away when I faced difficulties and couldn't keep a job – no matter how much I liked it and how successful I was. But I kept on joining the classes every evening and even listened to them while travelling long distance. I felt something was still waiting for me.
Finally, on day 7, Vishen told his childhood story about feeling guilty for asking and receiving and I remembered how much I wanted a dog as a child but we lived in an apartment and my parents told me that is not a place for dogs. However, they let me having a dog at my grandmother's place in the countryside where there was a huge garden. But I couldn't move there, we had to live in the capital, so the dog I got at the beginning of the summer was taken away as the school started. It happened three years in a row until I didn't want to have a dog anymore. And as I remembered my story, I realised that must be the reason why I give up on things I most want and fear success as I am certain it will be taken away from me the moment I start being attached.
Yet, I am the fighter-type and seem to win the first battle as I opened my heart once again to a fury friend – for a start. <3