Before Seven Sacred States of Spirituality, I have spend fifty years periodically and regularly attending therapy. At this point, now a senior member of my large extended family, I am experiencing great healing and ready to move forward with the next thirty years of my life.
I took this course to encourage, solidify and deepen the work that I have already done, to explore more deeply the work of Vishen, who I have taken a couple of short courses from in the past and to heal more deeply, to make progress without falling backward, and to face life without seeking approval or acceptance.
I have already recommended and shared course information with several people and followed it up with the impact it has had on me.
As we proceeded through the course, I personally, I began acknowledging the work that I have already done that was aligned with the course. This acknowledgement allowed me to breathe more deeply, to anchor myself in my knowingness, to have faith in loving myself and continuing my path of growth. I could feel, see and acknowledge changes in my as we moved through the seven steps.
I was born to a woman not ready to be a mother, it was a different point in time and she did the best she could with the recrourses on hand in rural northern Maine. It was insufficient for me by the time I was leaving home, I was ready to explode, I had become the angry person who she claimed I was from birth. I have healed from a very difficult path that ended with my being her caretaker for the last four years. My relatives would ask me, how I was doing it based on how we had gotten along. She gave me life, I would not exist without her but more than that, at one time she asked, only once, what I wanted. I had told her our relationship could not continue as it had been. I could not speak to ask for myself, but I asked that she be a good grandmother to my children. She said she had no role model, so I described how she could positively interact with them. And she did that. That gave me the basis for returning to care for her.
I have been rapidly healing and changing since her passing in March of 2023. The situation was such that I had never considered forgiveness, not even anywhere on my horizon. After the fifth session on non-attachment, I walked to my kitchen to get a glass of water, as I approached the sink, I said out loud, with no prior thought in my head, "Mother, I forgive you. You did what you could." I literally stopped in my tracks. I had never considered that this would happen. Thank you, thank you, Vishen. A great feeling of centeredness, calmness and peace settled over me releasing any remaining neediness in my life.
At the end of Christmas day, I went to visit a best friend that has interacted with me intensively over the last twenty years. She is my Reiki Master and we urge each other onward in our personal growth program. Last night, as I was leaving, she said to me for the first time ever, "You are different."
Yes, I am different and I have already rejoined Mindvalley to continue my growth and path towards 106.
