"I have a clear vision of who I want to become"

I started this Quest with the intention to better my health, but during the first week on the first MentalVideo I didn't ask for my health instead but at the last moment I had a change of heart... You see before the lockdown I was very stressed. Actually it goes back of 5 years, now that I think about it is even longer. hard to find a starting point and the topic because it covers my work life family life and health. So let me start with telling you that I work in a multinational company for a very important group. Everything was going good, normal ups and downs,but I was happy. In 2007 I had to have a first surgery but I was back on my feet in no time for me it was like "it happens life goes one, now is over". Things at work were changing and also in that case I was positive on saying no worried things will get better and that was it. Other change management happend and then I had my Son, I was very gertful because it was going to be had for my to get pregnant. After my maternity leave I went back to find that I had been moved to a new division and a new role (I was working in the Marketing and the new role was on the training) at first I couldn't understand why this change bit as soon as I started I really liked it. After two years on the role and which I was doing so well, I was asked to go back to the marketing, so I did. After a while we had a change management as it had happend manyother times. This time was different my new boss did want me there and she tried very hard to make my life difficult. During that period I had to have another surgery a d this time something g changed, it was not so simple to get back up my feet and forget about it so easely. Meanwhile my son was growing and I was happy he was going to daycare and I would pick him up after work. Me and my husband did see eye to eye but all together it wast so bad. Time passed by and the situation at work was getting worse and worse. I was feeling physical pain for the whole situation, my stomach would hurt so bad I lost weight, but I would keep my head up and I did want to show a sign of weakness. I like the company were I work I just didn't want to work for the person that I was working for. Things started getting so bad that I couldn't concentrate anymore, I couldn't talk to anyone because I would start to cry. My goal was to sit straight try the hardest I could not to cry so I would feel a stone on my throat the whole time. One day I had enough I went to the HR department and showed I needed to be transferred, three months after I was transfer agin. Things started to look better I was feeling free, I could talk again, but my health was getting worse. I had to have another surgery and this time it evolved more organs to clean but what hurt me the most was the removal of my uterus. This meat no more children this was such a pain, I felt such anger and frustration but I went on or at least that's what I thought. Things at work were getting alot better my confidance was up again, people were appreciating my work, ideas and things were good on that side. With my husband not so much at home there was alot of yelling going on. Then for my year control my blood work was not very good my body was still hurting eventhough it had past over a year after the surgery. I decided to take a year off so I could focused on my health and get better so on January 2020 I started my year off. Since I had time I said why not let me take some classes as well. I knew about mindvalley because on the hard days at work before starting I would get to the office very early so I would have time to do some free lessons on meditation and inspiring talks from Mindvalley, which they helped me a lot. Meanwhile there was so much tension in my family. That was the background now, back to my first week of Silva, like I said my focus was health but during the first MentalVideo but when I had to think of the video with my eyes open I just kept seeing my family and so I aske to find some peace between each other. The next day while I was cooking I found a baby pepper inside of a big bell pepper. I googled it and it seems that is very common thing but it had never happed to me and for sure the shape was very clear to me a woman holding her baby. I just knew that this happend to me because of the MentalVideo. The next day we went to a like nearby, never been to the town but the first thing I saw was a picture on a wall of the Madonna with her baby, is very common as well here in Italy to find them everywhere, but my mind was busy with thought and I refuse when I saw the picture right in front if me. The following weeks my family seemed different, we are talking more we are speing time. I'm cooking with my son again and we are more relaxed, talking more and I realized that I'm not angry anymore. I just Know it was the MentalVideo that helped me. As we continued with the lessons and we arrived to the 3 MIQ I just know what experises I want, how I want to grow within the company I work for and how I want to contribute to the world. I have a clear vision of who I want to become. My health I know that the inflammation has gone down because the pain is going down everday. I still need to help my body with choosing the right food to help to keep the inflammation low but things will be ok I just know it. I recommend this Quest to everyone who what to really listen to your heart and have an open mind. Thank you. Marta Isabel