"I'm excited to see how things unfold"

I'm on the beginning of week 2 for the Money EQ program. I also took the Silva Method 2 months ago. I live in abundance but it is all because of my partner. I am afraid of money. I want it but then am afraid to spend it. Even my partner, who lives in complete abundance and fulfills my every wish, and I can't escape my own fear of money or spending it and lack. I am afraid to be generous out of fear of my own lack. I have none of my own money. I have a small business for healing and I can't even get one client. I mostly use a credit card in his name but when he give me cash I don't want to spend it. After some healing work in the program I made an appointment with a woman who does hypnotherapy. She regressed my back to a past life prolly late 1800's where I was a homeless male my entire life, from youth to an old man. I was a simple man and had no thoughts or ideas that I could change things. There was just no way. My life was what it was. Period. I had no relationships. I was alone most of my life and died alone. I can imagine in that time period there were no resources and I lived truly in lack. If something I acquired was lost, etc. there was no replacement. It was truly gone forever. There was not an in and out flow of money or abundance. I spent my days watching those with money having "normal" lives. So there it was, I have no money or the ability to make any, yet everyone else does. My current exact beliefs. The therapist was able to clear much of the old energy. Very interesting this appointment lined up shorty after starting this class. I'm excited to see how things unfold. So much more to unfold!!