I’ve had a blessed life, filled with valuable lessons, especially in the first 30 years. I was born, third-generation, into a cult though I didn’t realize it was a cult for a long time. We did not live outside of society in a commune, but we were discouraged from engaging with the people outside our beliefs beyond what was necessary. It might sound similar to many religions, but the biggest lesson I continue to work through today is the guilt and shame instilled in us from the fact it was a doomsday cult. We were taught that the world would end, and only baptized adults would survive to rule the new world.
As a child, I knew I wasn’t baptized. That was an option only for adults. I was convinced I’d be abandoned at some point in my young life as the caretakers around me disappeared. I didn’t really know when this would all happed but I truly believed there would be no graduation from high school, no marriage, no future as a wife and mother (the only path a woman could take in my world). Everything about our lives was controlled through guilt and shame, from how we dressed, what we ate, how we behaved, and even what we thought. The idea of a loving God was confusing to me and gave me a skewed understanding of love.
Yet, despite all that, I did get married, had children, and lived a life I never thought I’d have. I realize now I manifested this wonderful life, though I struggled with and have worked a lot on feelings of guilt and shame for the abundance in it. I didn’t write down a list of goals at the time, but I had a very clear vision of what I wanted despite what I thought I deserved.
I left the church when I was around 30 and, along with my husband, who had also been part of the cult, decided to raise our two amazing boys in a completely different way than we had been raised. At this time I believed my only “acceptable” role was to raise them to be “good” men. That was my job (you can take the woman out of the church but not the church out of the woman). Along the way, I had opportunities to lead and teach, and eventually run a non-profit, always on my own terms. Through my husband’s support, I manifested a life where I could follow my own path in addition to what I knew my “job” to be at the time, full time motherhood.
When my children grew up and left home, I found myself lost asking, "Now what is my job?" Parenting is never truly over, but the relationship changes, I shifted from being a caretaker to a mentor to them. I felt like I had lost my sense of identity. I was out of a job.
Five years ago, I embarked on a journey to get healthy, not knowing where it would lead me. It led to the discovery of just how deeply all the guilt, shame, and fear had settled into my energies and body. My physical, emotional, and spiritual selves had been crying out for attention, but I had hidden from them in fear. Over these past five years, I’ve studied and become certified in various modalities. It started with tapping, then I learned Transcendental Meditation, and eventually, I found MindValley.
Through MindValley, I began to understand that the world is not a scary place, but rather one filled with true, unconditional love—a much different definition of love than what I was taught as a child. I got certified in programs like 10x, Holobody, and Hypnotherapy. I was drawn to hypnotherapy to better understand why I still clung to the beliefs of my upbringing, how I had bought into the fear and guilt for so long, even after the world didn’t end.
As I healed and began reconnecting with my body and mind, I caught glimpses of what it truly meant to love myself and others. One pivotal moment was during a MindValley Pro call with Regan Hillyer. She led an activation, and I had a vision of myself flying on a dragon, carrying a “love gun,” shooting it at people in conflict, healing them. I wanted more.
I attended MVU, immersed myself in the community, and experienced profound teachings. When it was available I immediately signed up for the Manifesting Mastery program and encouraged a friend to join as well. Having a friend along for the journey was incredible, it gave us both someone to talk to about the shifts and transformations we were experiencing.
This program has been life-changing for me. I've come to realize that I am a healer with a big job, which still feels like a daring statement to make, that is heresy (as I type this, I feel a small twinge of guilt…noted and cleared). But I now know that I’m here to help others connect with themselves and heal, emotionally, spiritually and physically, with the help and wisdom from all entities, dimensions and times. Being able to say that and embody it is a huge step for me.
During this program I’ve also manifested other incredible things, financial gifts, certification in the Eden Energy Method, and so much more that I didn’t even know I was asking for. I am so grateful for this point in my journey and so excited for what’s still to come. The future manifestations will be even bigger than I can imagine.
I began by saying I’ve had a blessed life, and I genuinely believe that. I’ve had the opportunity to experience the duality of life, witnessing both the truly loving side and the more difficult aspects. With the help of many people, especially MindValley and Manifesting Mastery, I’ve been able to navigate and heal from the trauma of my early years. This has better equipped me to step into my soul's destiny, which I fully embrace as part of my journey of BEING human.
As a child, I knew I wasn’t baptized. That was an option only for adults. I was convinced I’d be abandoned at some point in my young life as the caretakers around me disappeared. I didn’t really know when this would all happed but I truly believed there would be no graduation from high school, no marriage, no future as a wife and mother (the only path a woman could take in my world). Everything about our lives was controlled through guilt and shame, from how we dressed, what we ate, how we behaved, and even what we thought. The idea of a loving God was confusing to me and gave me a skewed understanding of love.
Yet, despite all that, I did get married, had children, and lived a life I never thought I’d have. I realize now I manifested this wonderful life, though I struggled with and have worked a lot on feelings of guilt and shame for the abundance in it. I didn’t write down a list of goals at the time, but I had a very clear vision of what I wanted despite what I thought I deserved.
I left the church when I was around 30 and, along with my husband, who had also been part of the cult, decided to raise our two amazing boys in a completely different way than we had been raised. At this time I believed my only “acceptable” role was to raise them to be “good” men. That was my job (you can take the woman out of the church but not the church out of the woman). Along the way, I had opportunities to lead and teach, and eventually run a non-profit, always on my own terms. Through my husband’s support, I manifested a life where I could follow my own path in addition to what I knew my “job” to be at the time, full time motherhood.
When my children grew up and left home, I found myself lost asking, "Now what is my job?" Parenting is never truly over, but the relationship changes, I shifted from being a caretaker to a mentor to them. I felt like I had lost my sense of identity. I was out of a job.
Five years ago, I embarked on a journey to get healthy, not knowing where it would lead me. It led to the discovery of just how deeply all the guilt, shame, and fear had settled into my energies and body. My physical, emotional, and spiritual selves had been crying out for attention, but I had hidden from them in fear. Over these past five years, I’ve studied and become certified in various modalities. It started with tapping, then I learned Transcendental Meditation, and eventually, I found MindValley.
Through MindValley, I began to understand that the world is not a scary place, but rather one filled with true, unconditional love—a much different definition of love than what I was taught as a child. I got certified in programs like 10x, Holobody, and Hypnotherapy. I was drawn to hypnotherapy to better understand why I still clung to the beliefs of my upbringing, how I had bought into the fear and guilt for so long, even after the world didn’t end.
As I healed and began reconnecting with my body and mind, I caught glimpses of what it truly meant to love myself and others. One pivotal moment was during a MindValley Pro call with Regan Hillyer. She led an activation, and I had a vision of myself flying on a dragon, carrying a “love gun,” shooting it at people in conflict, healing them. I wanted more.
I attended MVU, immersed myself in the community, and experienced profound teachings. When it was available I immediately signed up for the Manifesting Mastery program and encouraged a friend to join as well. Having a friend along for the journey was incredible, it gave us both someone to talk to about the shifts and transformations we were experiencing.
This program has been life-changing for me. I've come to realize that I am a healer with a big job, which still feels like a daring statement to make, that is heresy (as I type this, I feel a small twinge of guilt…noted and cleared). But I now know that I’m here to help others connect with themselves and heal, emotionally, spiritually and physically, with the help and wisdom from all entities, dimensions and times. Being able to say that and embody it is a huge step for me.
During this program I’ve also manifested other incredible things, financial gifts, certification in the Eden Energy Method, and so much more that I didn’t even know I was asking for. I am so grateful for this point in my journey and so excited for what’s still to come. The future manifestations will be even bigger than I can imagine.
I began by saying I’ve had a blessed life, and I genuinely believe that. I’ve had the opportunity to experience the duality of life, witnessing both the truly loving side and the more difficult aspects. With the help of many people, especially MindValley and Manifesting Mastery, I’ve been able to navigate and heal from the trauma of my early years. This has better equipped me to step into my soul's destiny, which I fully embrace as part of my journey of BEING human.