The last 4 years have been the hardest of my life - until recently.
I was a boat person from the Vietnam war - and grew up in an extremely strict migrant family assimilating in Australia after the war.
My father suffered from PTSD, and I was one of 6 children who was pushed and pushed and pushed to be 'successful'.
The measures my father used to push us to be someone were unfortunately all fear based, and it was childhood soaked in emotional and physical manipulation.
Which meant, I learned to see the world from a lens of scarcity and fear. I didn't realise the extent of this filter until I found Mind Valley.
Before MV, It looked as if I had achieved 'success' - running two 7- figure businesses - a high end boutique dental clinic and a coaching business mentoring hundreds of female dentist.
But it was all created from an underlying energy of scarcity.
Not enough-ness.
No matter how much I achieved it was not enough.
There was so much 'pushing and grinding' to grow the businesses.
I could feel my soul's yearning, but I did not have the courage to really listen.
Until it came to a heads -
4 years ago, my ex-husband and I uncoupled from our 17 year relationship.
Dismantling our whole life, and having to come to terms with sharing time with my daughter. That was super tough.
Then, finding myself in a disastrously toxic, dysfunctional relationship - and breaking free of that 2 years ago. Even more tough.
I became deeply anxious, with bouts of depression.
I'd blown my adrenals from all the stress and suffered chronic fatigue.
And I faced deep loneliness by choosing to be on my own for the first time since I was 16 years old, and not in any intimate relationship.
This was my journey into the dark night of the soul.
All the while saving face, and being the only one of 6 siblings (Vietnamese catholic raised) who was divorced, which was shameful.
I stopped my coaching business temporarily so I could find myself again.
I poured all my efforts into my dental clinic again as I clawed my way back -
and before finding Mind Valley and Manifesting Mastery, it was slowly improving but with a lot of grinding and pushing still.
Though the business numbers were improving before MV mastery, I was unfulfilled.
I wanted to be a more present mum.
I had a lot of previous skills in regulating emotions and mindset changes but it all seems manufactured at that stage.
I was sick of hustling.
I was sick of feeling anxious in the middle of the night and waking up feeling scarcity.
I prayed there needed to be another way -
The universe answered.
It sent me Regan in her Course The Art of Manifestation -
and although I was initially a little skeptical about the "woowooness" (despite being a qualified yoga teacher since I was 30, and studying under a tantra teacher for 7 years!) , I went for it.
Then I went ALL in with Manifesting Mastery.
I dutifully watched all the replays x2 despite being so busy wearing many hats -
a dentist, mentoring, leader - running and working in my clinic and being a single mum.
But I just kept at it.
And something happened very early on.
I am a completely changed person.
As soon as I had learned something, the universe would send me problems as if to say, well, did you really learn?
And I would using all the skills I learnt in real time.
I wake up now, and no longer have to work so hard to remove my filter of scarcity.
It is becoming my second nature to know the universe has my back.
To know I am a powerful manifestor.
Very early on, I remembered my highest self (I met her a 5 years back during a medicine journey) - and she has stayed with me strongly through all the skills I have learnt during the course.
She is my constant companion and coach -
and the truth is, it is ridiculous how much of my old self/ego still tries to get in the way from time to time - but how easy it is to tell myself another new story of abundance, love, 'rejection is redirection/protection' now.
I live life in the moment so much more now, and my relationship with Phoenix my daughter is magical.
My days are filled with wonder, and there is always a miracle awaiting - whether it be as simple as summoning a convenient car spot or doubling revenue for the month.
I have been a course junkie since I was 25 (I'm 43 now!) -
and I have done some brilliant courses and been part of so many high flying masterminds.
But Mind Valley has blown my mind because it combines EVERYTHING - spirit, body, mind to be in this world, be in business and truly have it all.
The value is indescribable - because truly it is too cheap!
I have been told recently by my finance team I have doubled my business value in the last year - with the last 6 months being the most effortless, and me working less and being on vacation with my daughter much more!
But most importantly, this quest has helped me remember to LOVE MYSELF the MOST.
Dream big and make big impact to awaken our dental and medical culture.
It is already happening out there.
I am so ready now to spread this message and have found my true soul's path.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! I will be forever grateful
Big love.