From Rock Bottom to Magic: My Manifestation Journey
In 2018, I found myself in the deepest crisis of my life, my own "dark night of the soul." In just six months, I lost everything: my relationship, the (his) children I had cared for over 15 years, our beautiful house, our business that we had worked so hard for, and in the end even my beloved Golden Retriever. I literally hit rock bottom, lying on my kitchen floor, completely lost in depression and burnout. In that dark period, I began asking myself, for the first time, the "right" questions: Who am I? (I was in a total identity crisis) and What did I miss for this to happen to me?
At my lowest point, out of despair, I reached for 'my faith' —something I had rejected many many years ago. I started praying again to the angels and to God, just like we were expected to do in school as a young child—traditional prayers that I could still rattle off after 30 years.
I had blindly signed all of our personal and business contracts and even my lawyer was doubting the chances of a good outcome. My 'right' and my money were frozen in court, and there seemed to be no way out. But I started making small plans for the future.
I began looking for a new home, about 60 kilometers away, in the city of my dreams: Ghent. This dream was always in my system. Everybody knew, since the time I studied in Ghent I knew one day I would come back to live there again but since my relationship I had buried the dream far away.
Without any money, I signed a contract for an apartment, with the condition, "pending court decision," as all my funds were still blocked.
Every night, I held imaginary meetings with angels at a virtual table, where I shared my deepest desires.
Every night, I held imaginary meetings with angels at a virtual table, where I shared my deepest desires.
And then, what seemed impossible happened: I unexpectedly received my rightful share of the divorce settlement. Although I didn't even know what manifesting was at the time, let alone how to do it, I actually was doing it. In that time I didn't have one idea of the inner guidance that was working behind the scenes for me.
In April 2021, I finally moved into my dream apartment with a garden in the historic center of Ghent—a wish I had always expressed, though everyone around me had called me crazy. This was when I began to understand that there was more.
Once I settled into my new home, I felt an intense urge to work on myself. Through a good friend, I ‘accidentally’ connected with a Belgian life coach and her community. She showed me the importance of awareness and personal growth. These insights led me to a retreat in Morocco in November 2022, where under the stars in the desert, I rediscovered my deepest passions: traveling, connection, and self-discovery.
During that retreat, I bought a beautiful Berber carpet for myself—a symbol of the transformation that was already starting within me, even though I couldn't fully grasp it at the time.
Shortly after, I felt a clear inner call once again: 'Move to Spain'. I could envision myself clearly ‘shining’ on the beach in Málaga, but I didn’t have the money. Everything was tied up in my brand-new apartment, and my new business wasn’t yet generating enough income for me to travel freely.
But I knew I had to follow this call. Long story short, I decided to sell my apartment. A buyer (investor) showed up quickly, and to my surprise, he suggested that I could continue renting my apartment. It was a gift. This allowed me to leave without any worries, with a nice sum of money in my account, a suitcase of clothes, and another with my painting supplies because, after 25 years, I was dying to start painting again.
My magical Berber carpet stayed packed away in the basement while I stayed in Spain for two years, now I can say: patiently waiting for the right moment to find its place.
Manifestation Mastery
In Spain, I met an angel—a dear friend sent by the universe—a wonderful woman who helped me realize I needed to bring my femininity out of the basement. So I did. She was an energetic therapist who also introduced me to the Mindvalley programs and the concept of manifestation. My heart immediately knew: "This is it!" When the opportunity to join the Manifestation Mastery appeared, I jumped in.
The extra money that came from a smart investment after selling my apartment allowed me to sign up for three Mindvalley mastery programs.
From that moment, everything started to change—not because of one specific ritual, but due to a complete shift in how I began to approach the world. At the start of Manifestation Mastery, we were asked to set our dream manifestation to work on throughout the program. My desire was clear: to meet my soulmate. Regan emphasized that we should focus on our manifestation to be completed "on or before the end of the mastery," September 2024.
Mastering My Energy, healing and Time
Through the teachings, we learned to vividly visualize our deepest desires, feeling the certainty of already being there. Daily I called for guidance to receive the lessons I needed to learn and heal —much faster, more powerfully, yet in a much softer and sweet way than I had to experience before. I also released my attachment to time, making it my greatest ally. This was a huge shift, as I once judged time harshly, never wearing a watch. Now, (my) time is one of my best friends.
My Higher Self
As I began to understand the power of resonance, I worked to become closely acquainted with my higher self—the version of me who has already achieved everything I dream of. Now I regularly speak with her; she gives me advice and insight. I knew deeply that I had to embody her to attract what I truly desired. One day, she suggested organizing a photoshoot for myself—a big challenge for me, as I’ve struggled with my self-image and self-worth all my life.
After a year in Málaga, I had just moved to Marbella, without any contacts or a network. But I jumped. I found a studio, a photographer, and a location in less than half a day. The result is a photo I’ve posted along with this story. This is my higher self, today. Still evolving but I am her, and that’s why the ease with which I’ve been attracting wonderful things lately is no surprise—it’s inevitable.
Around this time, I felt that it was time to return to Ghent, so I decided not to renew my apartment in Spain. I wanted to be home. Well, my new home. I had plans.
Once back in Belgium (July 2024), I decided to anchor the foundations of my 3D vision board within my work, sleep, and living space by making my home completely feng shui-proof. My bedroom especially—the space that, according to feng shui, reflects your romantic desires and goals—I totally transformed. I moved my bed and incorporated all the details that Marie Diamond taught us during the mastery. And at that exact moment, the Berber carpet from Morocco found its place at the foot of my bed. For me, it symbolized a magical Aladdin carpet, ready to take me to every wonderful and adventurous place my soul desired—a constant reminder that my transformation is always in motion, guiding me to new horizons. That’s the exact meaning and energy I gave to the carpet.
My Emotional Breakthrough and Artistic Expression
Manifestation is, above all, about taking action, so once I was home, I started dating again. The first profile picture I saw on a dating app was of a man who, without knowing it, would bring me my next big revelation: I am a highly sensitive person. Samuel, who has since become a great friend, helped me realize that I had suppressed my emotions and authenticity for my entire life. He helped me embrace that my strong intellect, my sensitivity, and my need for excitement and new experiences—my super high highs and super deep lows I never before knew how to manage - were all perfectly okay. They were actually qualities I could trust and use to achieve great things.
This insight gave me the strength to finally release my emotions. I literally felt my emotional body break open, and I found the courage to fully express myself as I am: sensitive, energetic, and deeply (but selective) curious. Once I started to open myself up even more to who I truly am, my world began to shift again. I freed myself from the shame I felt for my deep frustrations, sensitivity, and dreamy states, and the boredom I mostly couldn’t hide that had been so harshly judged my whole life.
As a child, I had shut myself down entirely—a complete emotional shutdown. But now, there was an accelerated process of self-acceptance and recognition. For the first time, I felt the power to express myself in my own spontaneous and fearless way. I dared to take steps that had only existed in my imagination before—like painting without fear of rejection.
Because during my time in Spain, I had never actually painted for myself. Although I had brought my painting supplies, I couldn’t even bring myself to open the bag. Only through the encouragement of friends (and wine) did I occasionally find myself on the beach, laughing and painting together. But for myself? No, that had never happened.
This insight was literally life-changing for me. Today, I live connected to my deepest feelings and desires, and the energy in my life flows freely. That same week, after 25 years and making peace with my high sensitivity, I placed my painting supplies in the middle of my living space. It was a symbolic move, as if I was bringing a long-lost part of myself back to the center of my life. I felt ready to let my creative energy flow. Next week, I’m starting a series of workshops 'abstract painting' at a super fun organization at a creative site near me. The opportunity had always been there, but I had never noticed it before. I can’t wait to paint the piece that will go above my bed.
And My Soulmate?
By now, I had learned that ‘meeting’ your soulmate isn’t the same as ‘being’ with your soulmate. The universe takes everything literally. I carried my soulmate dream as a blue butterfly from the beginning of the mastery, and although the end of the program was approaching the only thing I received were the letters MD via an astrologic app. I didn’t yet feel that I had met him. Still, I noticed that the men I started to encounter were getting more and more interesting and beautiful. Clearly my romantic life was shifting and moving.
The Magic of Synchronicity: Back to Morocco
During the final week of Manifestation Mastery, as the program was nearing its end, something happened that once again turned my world upside down. On Tuesday, September 18th—just before our graduation call—I received an unexpected message from my amazing friend Samuel. He told me that the official retreat in November had been canceled due to low registration, but he was organizing a try-out retreat in Morocco with a group on the next October 4th. One of the goals was to create video content and promotional materials for social media in preparation for the rescheduled official retreat in April 2025.
Thanks to the knowledge and skills I gained from Social Media Mastery (which I had taken alongside Manifestation Mastery), I knew I could help them create social media-proof reels, stories, and visuals. I felt the fire reignite within me—this is exactly what I had to 'wait' for. I knew immediately that I had to be part of it. When I suggested joining the team to help, Samuel was enthusiastic and sincerely grateful.
Everything fell into place: within a few hours, I had everything arranged, including a new passport (which had literally expired that exact same day after five years), and I agreed to go on this Jeep safari through the Moroccan desert. In just a few days, I will be returning to the place where, two years ago, I first had an important conversation with myself.
Everything felt like a divine sequence of events—a manifestation of my deepest desires. But the synchronicities didn’t stop there. The day after the invitation, I got suddenly connected through a personal message with someone who immediately felt amazingly special. His kind and funny words overwhelmed me surprisingly and resonated deeply with my energy. It's easy to explain: I just happen to have this strange magical feeling.
I’ve never met him before and I don’t know if he could be my soulmate or the next important (sweet) insight — I am letting go of that specific outcome. Since a while I just know with deep certainty that the burning feeling in my system and everything happening around me tells me that he is close. Everything indicates that this is one of other pivotal encounters I’ve been guided to—through divine guidance and a series of "coincidences" that, as we know, are never really coincidences. It's true! The universe acts in funny crazy ways.
The Magic of Surrender and Trust
Today, I live with deep trust and gratitude for everything that makes up my life—from my relationships to my career. Everything always falls perfectly into place. I feel lighter, freer, and more connected to my true self than ever before. I live as a manifestor: everything I see, hear, say, and do comes from a deep knowing that I am aligning with the universe. I nurture this deep gratitude and trust—the source and fuel for all of my manifestations.
What Manifestation Mastery has really taught me is that it’s not about the small details of daily rituals, but about the deep energetic shift that happens in how you live and breathe each day. I would recommend it to anyone who feels there is more to life. Because when you walk this path, you learn and experience that the universe always works in your favor if you allow it to.
My Body power
The most important insight I’ve gained from the course is the incredible power of the body and the strength of breathwork, hypnosis and meditation. I’ve learned that my body is the key, not my mind. The connection, appreciation, and love I have for my body today are indescribable. Listen to what your body tells you, take care of it, nurture it, give it what it needs, and never doubt its signals. Stay out of your head. Our mind—our analytical thinking—is there to keep us safe, but often leads us to a false sense of safety. I only use my mind when I need to think through practical matters.
Listening to your body also means paying attention to the people and events your body attracts through resonance. At some point, this becomes a natural part of your lifestyle. What you want to see, hear, and understand based on what your surroundings present to you are the clues, the tips, and the breadcrumbs to your most unimaginable and fantastic manifestations. By the way, today I am also 3 kg below the goal weight I had set on my 3D vision board in April, and I feel fitter and more beautiful than ever.
The peace and serenity, the deep bliss, the surrender, and trust that this journey has brought me are the most beautiful things in life. The most beautiful manifestation anyone with a beating heart could dream of is to stand in life as an open, joyful person—healthy, wealthy, adventurous, and free—surrounded by family, love and meaningful friendships. To express yourself fearlessly as who you are, to feel seen and heard, to always feel safe in whatever you want to do or undertake. This is about embodying deep trust, a result of the inner energetic balance and guidance that always “has your back” when you’re connected to it.
The world will know my name.
My most beautiful, effortless life in harmony with myself and my surroundings is happening. Everything I desire flows to me within a playfield of peace, creativity, beauty, and high excitement. KNOWING WHO I AM and loving myself deeply for it is my most ultimate manifestation to date: not only attracting what I want but becoming the authentic person who, whilst flying on her magical carpet, can attract everything her soul desires.
I deeply feel I am close to this state of abundance. And this is just the beginning. I wonder...
Everything is energy therefore everything is connected. The woman I was until 2018, I no longer recognize—truly. To me, today, she is a complete stranger. I know she currently lives in a completely different reality. But when she reaches out and calls me, I surely will do everything I possibly can to help her.
More then one million events, choices, and movements have led me to where I stand today, and everything accelerated the moment I surrendered. These are the highlights of my recent journey, and I hope they inspire you to trust your own divine path of becoming.
I want to deeply and sincerely thank my angels and my guides, the Mindvalley Universe and all all all the beautiful teachers of this incredible Manifestation Mastery—especially Regan and Juanpa, Vishen, Michael Beckwith, Marie Diamond, Sonia Choquette, Ariya Lorenz, Neale Donald Walsch, Anodea Judith, and Naveen Jain—for all the incredibly important, beautiful, sweet, life-transforming, and unforgettable lessons.
This story is truthfully and faithfully based on my experience, without names or changed names for privacy.