"I feel clearer, I also realized through the process, there is so very much to be grateful for"

I have been trying to do this my whole life, I think ... or at least for a lot of my adult life / definitely since becoming pregnant with my first child, but without guidance to focus or structure, or a real understanding of ‘what first’ and how everything is connected, I was like a cat with a rubix cube, puzzling and tapping and hoping for something to fall into place. and in that state of searching I have also been like a child in a sweet shop - constantly enamoured by everything that might offer a solution, a guide, a direction, and answer, a door, but over and again coming upon the same need, which I now realise is a clear vision, one that takes all aspects into account and begins to work with them together encouraging their individual resonance into harmony. 
I have a way to go, but I feel clearer, I also realized through the process, there is so very much to be grateful for, and things operate at their best when you see their positives over and before their negatives or drawbacks. Thank you for this opportunity. I will be back in the future, when I’m a little further along the financial goals.