On a scale of 1 - 10, it was around a 7, most of the time. So, as a last resort, I said yes when I found this meditation. And, I was willing to follow the suggestions.
Thanks to meditating every day, for an hour. The pain, I experience, has come down to 0 - 3. And, I have known my "life's vision", for about 9 or 10 years.
I have been actively putting my music out there into the Universe, for about 8 years. I have known that it would "change the world". My music is like me, authentic; not quiet, and sitting in the back. Like I was raised. My music is human, and spiritual, and unapologetic. In my vision, I am performing for a stadium full of people. And, the exchange of Love ...it comes close to my near death experience. And my music, along with many others, is changing this world. But because of my history, I knew that I didn't want this "Vision" unless I had it from the inside out. So, the work began. Uncovering, discovering, and discarding, all of the stuff inside of me. That would prevent me from experiencing my Live's Vision. I have come really far. But, I haven't gotten any kind of a real audience. for my music ...on any kind of a grand scale. I have been visualizing and affirming, my butt off. every morning. I meditate (usually 30 minutes, now.) I, have great music ...but, little in the way of people who are reached by it. That's why I'm here. And, what I've gotten is immeasurable. There were a few ideas that I hadn't know about that came up. Ideas that would block the energy, that the vision plays in.
This Life Visioning Quest is giving me a way to proceed. Cause the last time, I did a Facebook Live. And, one person watched it. It was always similar to that. And, I didn't know how to get the vision, I had in meditation, to materialize. It almost stopped me. But, not really. I believe in Love, and I believe in We ...and I believe in my Life's Vision. I just didn't know where to go next ...what to do next. I mean, how to get growing in the right direction, at least? Now, I still don't quite know what I'll DO. Except, keep singing, writing and producing. Then, releasing my music. But, I have the road map, now. I am not alone, in this. Thank you, Michael! ???