"The reason I enrolled in Duality is because my life seems to be stuck in a loop"

The reason I enrolled in Duality is because my life seems to be stuck in a loop. I seem to be surrounded by people who do everything but encourage, support, and nurture me. I feel like Cinderella, without the happy ending. The two joys in my life are my cat, Rose, and teaching piano. I have consciously been on my spiritual journey for most of my adult life and it's kind-of like the phrase "zoom - eek". I make positive progress and then it comes to a screaming halt, or I do something that ruins the positive direction things are going, or a person(s) comes along and decides they just don't want me "there" for whatever reason. From the information I heard, during the Masterclass for Duality, it addressed identifying the blocks that might be in your life. I am living in hope that, thru taking this course, I will be able to identify my blocks and be willing to address them and grow thru them. I'm 61 years old and want to live the rest of my life filled with physical and mental health, love, joy, playfulness, happiness, positive adventures, and surrounded by family and true friends who truly love me and nurture the love and joy in life. Hopefully I have at least 40 more years - there's lots of longevity in my family. My parents are 90 and 88 and still living on their own and driving. My grandparents lived well into their 90's and early 100's. I feel we are all put on this planet with an "opus", a gift, inside of us. Our gift to the planet that, when it is "played" or "sung", brings great joy to those around you (family, friends, community). The added benefit of this "opus", when "played", is that the individual feels great happiness in what they have contributed to others' lives. I do not want to leave this planet without discovering my "opus" and sharing it. I guess what I'm actually trying to say is I want to feel like I have value and purpose in this life, and not just taking up space and everybody's "whipping-post". I need to know I have value and worth and not just taking up space.