I wish there was an automatic switch (which I realise is completely unrealistic) to release all expectations and to be able to live in the present moment. My ego is apparently extremely strong... and affected by external circumstances... it’s even stronger. It’s weird how I can function perfectly well in certain situations but being in complete misery when some people are in my vicinity... I’m aware of this but seem to be unable to let go.
However, I’m proud that I took the step and embarked on this quest. I feel I’m much more aware of every step I take. Although, I make mistakes all the time. I feel this quest has brought me even closer to my son and he opened up today to tell me he misses his dad and he said he wanted things to be different (meaning he wants dad back with us). A month ago he wouldn’t have said that but would’ve just said he knows I’m angry with dad... I feel he wants to talk to me much more now and I feel fantastic for making myself available for it. I will do the quest again to reflect on my previous notes and to see if I dare make more changes. Thanks to all fellow tribe buddies or reaching out day after day after day. ❤️