Before I enrolled on this program 48 hours ago, I believe I appear to others as a very successful and popular singer and spiritual voice in my global cultural community. But, I do not feel consistently positive and powerful.
Due to blockages and stresses I feel I am expressing only 10-15% of my potential and I have been scarily sliding down a hole of depression for the past few years. Fear of the next curveball from life and fatigue of the psyche has made me feel disconnected from my Self.
Currently I live with 2 older siblings, helping to take care of my eldest sibling who is diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. This is hugely challenging and has been my greatest teacher to date. It has taken its toll and caused awful upheaval in my personal and professional life. I needed help! Professional help! Alas, all the counsellors and therapists I have encountered to date have not been able to get to the root of my issues and help me resolve them.
My energy keeps on draining, and every day it feels like I am pushing my car uphill instead of driving it with ease. So, two days ago I looked for a psychotherapist with a holistic approach and came across Mindvalley's Chakra Quest with Anodea Judith. Despite being midnight I stayed up to listen to the webinar interview with Vishen and Anodea. My energy shifted and went up a notch. Despite my reservations to join and part with money (!) another quiet, firm, strong, positive, inner voice urged me to sign up! I signed up albeit with reservations. In the past, I have signed up for many programs and not followed through. Feeling depressed has made me isolate myself. So, even the cheery invite to join the supportive Tribe filled me with dismay. But that voice gently kept up its reassuring tone to take it a step at a time. I am not sure how this has happened but my energy since sign up has been steadily higher and positive, making the past 48 hours very productive yet relatively serene! If you only knew the insanity that I encounter everyday, "serene" is not a quality that would be found singing from the rooftops of my energy system! It is as if I deeply know I am now in safe hands, and on a sure road to self-integration and purpose! May I please let out a "Yippee" and "Hooray" now?
Due to blockages and stresses I feel I am expressing only 10-15% of my potential and I have been scarily sliding down a hole of depression for the past few years. Fear of the next curveball from life and fatigue of the psyche has made me feel disconnected from my Self.
Currently I live with 2 older siblings, helping to take care of my eldest sibling who is diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. This is hugely challenging and has been my greatest teacher to date. It has taken its toll and caused awful upheaval in my personal and professional life. I needed help! Professional help! Alas, all the counsellors and therapists I have encountered to date have not been able to get to the root of my issues and help me resolve them.
My energy keeps on draining, and every day it feels like I am pushing my car uphill instead of driving it with ease. So, two days ago I looked for a psychotherapist with a holistic approach and came across Mindvalley's Chakra Quest with Anodea Judith. Despite being midnight I stayed up to listen to the webinar interview with Vishen and Anodea. My energy shifted and went up a notch. Despite my reservations to join and part with money (!) another quiet, firm, strong, positive, inner voice urged me to sign up! I signed up albeit with reservations. In the past, I have signed up for many programs and not followed through. Feeling depressed has made me isolate myself. So, even the cheery invite to join the supportive Tribe filled me with dismay. But that voice gently kept up its reassuring tone to take it a step at a time. I am not sure how this has happened but my energy since sign up has been steadily higher and positive, making the past 48 hours very productive yet relatively serene! If you only knew the insanity that I encounter everyday, "serene" is not a quality that would be found singing from the rooftops of my energy system! It is as if I deeply know I am now in safe hands, and on a sure road to self-integration and purpose! May I please let out a "Yippee" and "Hooray" now?