"I’m more confident and have earned my self-respect back"

My Quest began as a part of a personal journey/promise to myself at the beginning of 2019 after I had just turned 59. I have been married for 39 years, I have 3 grown children and 4 grandchildren with another on the way, due in July this year. I suffered with chronic pain for most of my life that was the result of an auto accident when I was 18. It wasn’t bad when it happened but my life got very busy after this and I never addressed my neck issues. Long story short and 4 Cervical surgeries later I was left with chronic pain that didn’t allow me to continue full time work in my career that was the most fulfilling for me at that point in my life. I have always loved helping others and I had always wanted to become a nurse. That dream didn’t work out for several reasons but I pursued a job that I loved to do every day. I had to leave my dream job because of this pain and go on disability. After leaving my job and being home all the time it led to some very bad depression, (turns out that’s a good thing ?) lack of self esteem and self worth had all set in for 2 years I dealt with it just accepting it as old age normalcy. However somewhere deep inside me I have always had the strength, courage and dedication to pursue my passions. I’ve had many different careers trying to find it. I knew that my unhappiness was causing my children to alter their impression of me and I didn’t like who they saw me as. It was painful enough to light a fire inside me and pursue my purpose, my happiness with life again and find my spiritual side that I had never found throughout life. Hard to admit that one, however it wasn’t from a lack of trying. Being married to someone with opposite beliefs is hard for one and the other was from disappointments again and again. The reason I enrolled in this quest is to focus on bending reality and changing my current life from my existing supposed course at the time. It’s easier to see where you’re headed when you are in that stage of life unless you decide to change it drastically in my case. I also am somewhat new to my passion. The movie “The Secret” was a great start for me, I also attended a weekend seminar and a 7 day personal mastery program in my early 40’s and I let it all go without ever holding on to much of what I had learned. My life was busy with 3 teenagers at the time. Moral here is don’t give up when you’re headed in this direction, keep going and have some dedication to yourself. Don’t put yourself in 2nd place just because you’re a mother. I recommend this program for anyone who is truly interested in changing the thoughts they have about life. You are more in control then you realize. I truly wish that more people were doing this then our world could change for the better. Realize that you must first focus on yourself in order to have the life you dream of. Mines not changed due to quarantine situation as far as manifesting and I think the bending reality will be easier after I search within to deal with some remaining issues I realize I still hold onto that aren’t serving me. I have been on a very intended journey during isolation and while my husband works out of town. Somehow, it all worked out perfect because I’m not focusing on anything but my personal growth. An unusual thing but worth mentioning I think. Using your time wisely always is my new refreshed motto. Biggest change would have to be my ability to meditate, I am very high energy and I’m enthusiastic and eager to make changes due to my age and the fact that I’m turning 60 soon. I’ve realized just how remarkable personal growth can be, how much it can help with relationships, my growth has caused some bumps but I am determined to see this through. It was hard for me to focus and meditate when I started and because of this program and taking “The M Word” has helped tremendously. My mind feels more alive and my intuition is definitely sharper. It was good because I had experienced it while raising 3 children, however this intuition is like having a new brain at my age. I suddenly understand everything on a much deeper level then I ever have in my life. 3 take always, if you have some forgiveness to work through regarding your past it is helpful to know that it would benefit you greatly to pursue that before taking this course. This has been a wonderful course, I have enjoyed the meditations and visualizations. Looking forward to implementing them more in the future. Vishen is a wonderful coach who is very relatable and I love his accent. I appreciate his methods and his personal character. Biggest positive change I believe will be in my relationship with my husband an hopefully the success of my future, I’m thinking I might write a book someday. I am definitely looking forward to the rest of my life and never giving up on my dreams for that extraordinary life. I’m more confident and have earned my self-respect back. Thank you Vishen. Hopefully I’ll run into you some day. Be well all! And remember who you are!