"I joined this program in the hope to heel myself"

Before this program I had one of the most difficult year (2019) in my life, full of illness and death of my two extremely loved people in my life. I become extremely stressed and depressed and I am still in deportation. I joined this program in the hope to heel myself. I am a beginner and I am trying my best to follow the program. I believe it will reward me as I believe in what I am hearing and reading and practice everything. Some tasks are challenging and I spent a few days thinking about them as I have never been asked those questions before and I listen the lessons for several days and think deeply about them searching for answers in my soul before I am able to answer them. My family, and good friends are main pillars of my life. In general I love people, don’t judge them anymore as I used to as I younger person. I am 60 years old now and don’t have a job. I know that every person needs goals in different aspects of our lives. However my depression stilled me and all my visions disappeared. I don’t know any more what I want, what would make me satisfied. I love with my husband, and have two wonderful great daughters which live in the city 450 km away from us. I was born in Serbia and I migrated to NZ in 1994, with a residence permanent visa. I must Manitoba here: I knew I must go to NZ had a vision and goal, I didn’t dwell on how I am to achieve this but the Universe helped me. It is far too long story to right here about. I live in a lovely home, I loved all my jobs and changed them when I didn’t like them. We as a family traveled a lot together in many different countries and I always had a vision for something. Unfortunately now I am only an empty shell. Regards Ljiljana