"I had to let go of things that I have carried deep within me"

Due to the view of my classmates I grew to think of myself as overweight and ugly also have been a fan of Japanese anime and manga my tastes were somewhat different. both my brother and father were disabled so that did not help. due to finding out the world could be cruel I retreated into my anime and eating gaining twice as much weight as I used to. due to the view that I needed someone to save me I waited and waited and then gave up thinking life just had to be this way. this year after being thirty two I decided and go in to spirituality, first step has being trying to meditate (quite hard to quite me mind). one day I say the ad to mindvalley and it drew my interest and I decided to look into it and my world changed. have had to do a lot of deep soul searching the last 2 weeks, I had to look at things that I had previously run away from. I had to let go of things that I have carried deep within me and look at the views that I had then look in to why they where there in the first place its been very scary but also satisfying taking the first steps, my goal is to truly look at myself and to find my true purpose.