Just like any other 30 something Korean young mom with 3-year-old son, I was struggling with my life. I didn't have guts to look into sour relations with mother-in-law, all the blame coming from in-law parents and especially my dysfunctional marriage, more specifically, an alcoholic, violent, abusive and controlling husband with secret financial problems. Before I had my son, I was working as a full time certified simultaneous translator making a decent living and yet my husband was controlling all my salary and compensations and not revealing any financial status to me. Just like my bank account, my life was controlled by a man in the name of “for a better future". This reality check came much later as a result of energy healing.
I couldn't tell my parents what I've been going through as I was a proud daughter who always needs to please them with outside recognition or prize or good school if any. And I was raised by emotionally unavailable mom and sometimes abusive dad who had to work through financial survival as the life in Korea is pretty tough for a middle class so they are always working their butt off not even spending any holidays with us to this day. So, by now, as you have guessed it, I had no one to turn to and consult with my woes or pour my heart out to anyone. And I was ashamed of myself, if I had to seek anyone for help. I was living around built-up wall called shame, pride and jealousy at the same time creating the unsafe living environment with a controlling man. But I always pretended that my life was better than others'. As you can see, I definitely needed help.
I was a seeker of spirituality, so I always listened to Deborah’s radio as a backdrop and ever since Deborah King started her show back in 2009, I immediately got hooked by her voice and her teachings. I didn't know exactly what energy healing was but I signed up for it. And fast forward, it turned out to be the best investment ever. I'm meeting more of me which is so exciting because the person that I aspire to be was inside of me. The more I get to meet my true essence of me, the more I fall in love with the qualities that I exude so naturally. Therefore, I don't have to cover up to become a better person which is so freeing. The more I can save all the energy spent for cover-ups, I feel stronger, lighter, more loving, authentic and transparent.
Had it not been Deborah's programs, I would have not had the courage to separate with my husband and claim my hijacked life. I'm living in a conservative and male-centered eastern culture. Always, guilt, shame and sacrifice is a virtue that women need to have. We are not supposed to speak up and just should do as we are told to do without questioning. This was the conventional wisdom. Therefore, we don't have a chance to tap into our personal power. I feel like spirit guides spruced me up to be on the launch pad for my mission in life of serving with the help of energy healing. With this new sense of freedom, peace and gratitude that I found, I'm ready to take on a journey of becoming a wisdom keeper. Just by thinking of that mission, my heart beats…and whatever it takes, I'm willing to go for it.
I couldn't tell my parents what I've been going through as I was a proud daughter who always needs to please them with outside recognition or prize or good school if any. And I was raised by emotionally unavailable mom and sometimes abusive dad who had to work through financial survival as the life in Korea is pretty tough for a middle class so they are always working their butt off not even spending any holidays with us to this day. So, by now, as you have guessed it, I had no one to turn to and consult with my woes or pour my heart out to anyone. And I was ashamed of myself, if I had to seek anyone for help. I was living around built-up wall called shame, pride and jealousy at the same time creating the unsafe living environment with a controlling man. But I always pretended that my life was better than others'. As you can see, I definitely needed help.
I was a seeker of spirituality, so I always listened to Deborah’s radio as a backdrop and ever since Deborah King started her show back in 2009, I immediately got hooked by her voice and her teachings. I didn't know exactly what energy healing was but I signed up for it. And fast forward, it turned out to be the best investment ever. I'm meeting more of me which is so exciting because the person that I aspire to be was inside of me. The more I get to meet my true essence of me, the more I fall in love with the qualities that I exude so naturally. Therefore, I don't have to cover up to become a better person which is so freeing. The more I can save all the energy spent for cover-ups, I feel stronger, lighter, more loving, authentic and transparent.
Had it not been Deborah's programs, I would have not had the courage to separate with my husband and claim my hijacked life. I'm living in a conservative and male-centered eastern culture. Always, guilt, shame and sacrifice is a virtue that women need to have. We are not supposed to speak up and just should do as we are told to do without questioning. This was the conventional wisdom. Therefore, we don't have a chance to tap into our personal power. I feel like spirit guides spruced me up to be on the launch pad for my mission in life of serving with the help of energy healing. With this new sense of freedom, peace and gratitude that I found, I'm ready to take on a journey of becoming a wisdom keeper. Just by thinking of that mission, my heart beats…and whatever it takes, I'm willing to go for it.