"During WildFit, I learned to love myself, look at myself in the mirror, and ignore critics"

[The relationship with food like prior to WildFit?]

I thought I was eating to get my energy for the day and to avoid diseases. I didn't think I was an emotional eater, or that I associated food with certain life events. I was wrong.

I seldom crave for certain foods, but when I do, I let myself have it; thinking that it’s what my body probably needs at the moment (e.g. salty chips - I probably need salt and fat so I give myself the junk food that I wanted).

It bothered me that I was paying for food that was labeled as "healthy" by the food and marketing industry just because I thought there were no other options. I used to do my own research and learned some of the tricks used to target consumers. But, more often than not, I was confused. I was also very slim and quite unsatisfied with my body. I was curious about what I could learn from WildFit.

I realized that I saw my physical stature as a limitation - in many aspects of my life. I’m relatively tiny: 5’1”, 40.5kg with about 18% body fat when I started WildFit. When I feel small (literally or figuratively), that’s when I tend to reach for comfort food. I guess subconsciously, I wanted to grow big. But all it did was make me unhealthy. My size doesn't change much no matter what I eat, even in the lowest points of my life. That was a breakthrough, and I was able to overcome it.

I got to know not just my body, but also my psyche. I’ve been in a downward emotional spiral before, quit my career and drowned in self-loathing. But during WildFit, I learned to love myself, look at myself in the mirror, and ignore critics (including friends and family). I learned to be honest with myself and listen to my inner voices.

I did release some weight. I was 38.7 kg with 16.8% body fat at the end of the program. I didn’t mind.

More than having more energy, having a clearer mind, and recovering faster from injuries; I gained self-love, self-respect and self-confidence. Psychologically, it worked better than the multiple sessions I had with therapists. It led me to pursue more self-improvement endeavors so I can contribute my best self to the world.