"I’ve never loved myself as much as I truly do today"

Before starting this program, I was rarely able to feel or be aware of my intuition. I was too much dependent of the wrong way of living and I knew it: unsatisfied of my life, my choices, never trusted enough my heart to follow it. I was a mess, destroyed by the world but in all honesty, I let it destroy me maybe to really, one day (with this program), put all the pieces together but the right way this time! 
 I always knew intuition existed but thought that it was a super power accessible only for the lucky ones. Unreachable. I wanted to be part of the gang! It certainly is an addictive sensation in particular when you taste it once or twice. 

In some ways, the gap between the real Nathalie standing on the opposite side of the cliff (where life is just filled with brightness, happiness and adventure), and the other Nathalie with her back facing everything that was wrong, just kept getting wider and wider. Until one day when things started to change. In 2022, I decided to leave the country which became for 19 years sort of a home for me: Canada. 

Originally, I grew up in France but since I was a kid, I always felt a strong feeling that this birth place wasn't a country for me to have a life in. I had no clue why. I just knew it. When I turned 30 years old, I was depressed probably because I knew where I should be instead of the same place. I couldn’t find the strength to pack and leave all that I knew behind. For reacting at the constant call to go to the United States to be specific on the location, I can only interpret my guides put me in a state of mind where I’d have a clear choice: stay = you died // leave = you live. The second choice was mine, then. I felt immediately the weigh lifted off my shoulders and a voice saying: ‘’finally!’’.
 You gonna say now: Why going in Canada though?! Why not trusting completely my guides and going in America? The reality of the cost of living and the immigration price to pay were enough to stop me to reach my Wonderland. Sadly, I couldn’t fully trust.
 I ended in Montreal, the French part of Canada. For someone who always love bright sunshine, blue sky and hot temperatures I pretty much missed the target by staying almost two decades where winters last 6-7 months a year! Yeah, I know.

Decision after decision, year after year, the wrong side always won the battles over my intuition. Worst, I started to become really good at not feeling it reaching out to me to put me back on the real track. Fear and belief that I wasn’t really worth more.
 But back in 2022, my guide managed to open a door, just a crack but enough to use the mental state card again and presented me with one destination that I never had in my radar before: let’s go South, to the sun and the heat. Mexico, here I am.

This time around, my intuition won the full battle because I didn’t know what I'll do for a living there. I didn't have much money when I left. And yet, when I started to meditate again, I could feel that deep peaceful sensation inside, as comforting as a blanket can be to the touch, that everything will be okay from now on. Adding that it was about time for me to work for my dreams and be the creator, the artist that I've always been (but silenced). I was reassured, calmed … trusting fully for once even if lacking of money is a strong trigger. My vibrational energy started immediately to get higher and it felt so good! That was my 1st huge leap of faith into the Universe for a long time. 

Initially, I was supposed to join a friend on the West Coast of Mexico. It was reassuring for me since it wasn’t a conscious choice of destination but ten days prior to departure, it all blowed away as quickly as snapping your fingers. The friendship was gone. I wasn’t supposed to go there, that I understood. Better possible future awaits elsewhere. So, I landed in Playa del Carmen, Yucatan, in the Caribbean sea with my cat, only because it felt right to go there, where an amazing force of energy runs underground (according to everyone!), ley lines. I just say ‘Okay, then. Let’s go there’. Today, I can add - I don’t know why I decided it would be my destination, I didn’t need to know, just going.

I started to work on my personal growth, to heal my unlimited wounds and push aside temporarily anything I was trying to create to generate money. 

I discovered the MindValley platform (which changed my life, still) devouring the content offered. My vibrations got higher each day (I could quickly feel the difference) and my intuition became more frequent ... subtle but in comparison to before, more present. Obviously, I loved it but could still feel some grip of the past. That’s when I ‘curiously’ watched an introductory video of the Quest by Sonia Choquette as I was searching for the next one. It felt right to go for it. Right timing too.
 Was it because I was experiencing a very distraught moment financially, putting me each day closer to that barking dog that wanted so desperately to regain control over my life? I don't know but it was the right thing to do, like answering a calling. 

Within the Lesson-1, my excitement made more noise than the barking dog around. I just ate one lesson after the other. Something started to awake deep inside. 
 The other day was my birthday (April 16th … I don’t know why I put it down or do I?). I had planed to stay home and work on a program that I’m about to launch but it was my birthday. Doing something I like would have been nice too. Mid-day, while working on bed with my computer (at least I changed location inside the appartement), I suddenly hear some sort of few knocks at the living room window. I should say that I’m on the third floor. It was definitely weird. At least, I knew it wasn’t just in my head since my cat heard it too. Nothing for few minutes, then it happened again. A thought cross my mind: ‘What if it was a sign to stop working for today?!’. I left the bed, went to the window and surely, one of those beautiful yellow birds that we have here, is standing in the air, knocking at the window frame with its beak. It quickly changed scenery to retreat on a tree branch further back in the street but still facing me. I knew right away that it was time to do something that brings me joy! I smiled. My guides had just spoken. That was by far the most unexpected way for my intuition to reach out to me. I can only guess the bird (which usually can not be easily seen) was a special touch for my special day!!

Today, as I finished this life changing Quest, at first I didn’t have any intention at writing a story, as suggested, but something told me otherwise. So, here I am, writing probably too much but I just can’t help it because I miss it too much. Sure, I’m a fiction novel author, far from writing kind of an autobiographic story but it felt true in my heart. Your mindset has to be at a somehow right place to imagine stories and tell them. It’s been in waiting for the past four years. 
 Did I have other plans for the day? Absolutely, yes! … but taking my time to properly tell this story about my journey with Intuition was the only right thing to do. I don’t know why and I don’t feel the need to know. I just do it with joy and excitement. 

As a precious reminder of what makes my heart beating like congas: telling stories. According to my mother, I was little when I stopped strangers in the street, offering them to tell them a story of my imagination. My eyes are always lightening up with fireworks when I do so or when I paint, sketch, draw … Today’s choice came out of practicing each day each lesson. 
 Baby steps into reaching that constant level of connexion with my guides but it’s progress and that makes me extremely grateful. I’ve never loved myself as much as I truly do today. And the road keeps going ahead!
 Thank you, Sonia.