"This is the most powerful thing I have done when it comes to therapy"

Have been struggling with low self-esteem, anxiety, and depression for most of my adult life, to the point where I wanted to take my own life. I'm always chasing for external ways to validate myself. While I was in us navy it felt as if I have found purpose, but I just suppressed my feelings and worked hard not to appear dumb and avoid rejection. I advance in rank, I felt good, but at the end of it all, I was just still seeking approval. As far as my love life, I believe I attracted a woman that is similar to my mother as far as been codependent, and she attracted a man similar to her father. Co-dependent and unavailable. II feel that my mother loved me when she needed to be love, and rejected me when she was ok. I feel that I come across as needy when it comes to the opposite sex, which is a hard reality to face. It is as if I'm asking women to save me and to repair the damage done by my mother. When I did the exercise with Marisa about becoming rejection bulletproof, I went back to a scene when I was 6 or 7 tears old. My younger brother and I were sent to do an errand. When we completed the errant we decided to raise back home using separate routes, to see who would get there first. When I got home, my family informed me that my brother was hit by a vehicle. They said that it was my fault and started to blast me! I did not remember that incident until I did the hypnotic exercise with Marisa. This is the most powerful thing I have done when it comes to therapy. Before this exercise, I have done several therapy sections with different therapists, and for the most part, I just got frustrated. I feel that the work I'm doing in this class, is key to me leaving a healthy lifestyle, where I'm empowered, instead of feeling like a victim. I love the simplicity of the course. I'm working it everyday. I will be repeating the whole thing again once I'm done. Without building a healthy version of myself, there is no life for me. The mindvalley teaching approach is perfect for the way I like to learn. thank you Marisa, and Thank Vishen. I'm starting to feel that I have a life to live.