"I realized how deep a double bind block I have had with abundance"

I am just beginning my Mindvalley journey with RTT and learning how to navigate the experience. I realized how deep a double bind block I have had with abundance. I associated abundance with abuse of power and oppression ... and jealousy and stealing from others. In other words, my subconscious believed on the one hand that I do not want to abuse or oppressor steal from others nor do I want anyone to abuse, oppress or steal from me. In that realm, staying “humble” and “invisible” was the only way to feel safe. 
I had to play with the wording of my empowering belief intentions to allow abundance in. Abundance benefits everyone’s highest good. I am a safe beacon for good when I shine with abundance. So be it. So it is.