First and foremost, I would like to say a heartfelt thank you to Ajit, Sid, and the rest of the team for putting together such a phenomenal program that really shifted the paradigm for me in many ways.
I am someone who comes from a challenging background, I will give a brief summary here (I am in the process of writing my book, launching soon with the whole story). Here are just some of my experiences:
- I experienced horrific sexual abuse when I was 4
- I had forced marriage at 16
- The very first love of my life, which was the right to education was taken away from me
- I had domestic abuse which led me to leave home in my teenage years
- I experienced modern-day slavery while away from home and was locked away for months experiencing more emotional and physical abuse
- I returned home after finding out that my father had left home and married a girl just 3 years older than me because of the "shame" I brought upon him for leaving home
- I fell into deep depression seeing my mother and siblings without any help and being systematically isolated from the whole community.
- I couldn't cope with this pain and entirely blamed myself for the misery everyone was living, so I attempted 5 suicide attempts (thankfully and obviously failed each time, but went through an incredible amount of pain both physically and emotionally).
- I then had an arranged marriage in the hope of settling down and showing everyone that I was 'normal' and could 'settle' just like any other good Asian/ Pakistani girl.
- This marriage was abusive on every front including financially, shaming me for my past, making me lose everyone I knew, making me leave my job, not speak to my family, and forcing me to have kids
- I had 2 amazing boys from this marriage but the marriage was over as soon as he got his British passport
- I was a single parent for a while and was working to make the ends meet but still felt very lonely and also wanted to desperately prove to the world that I actually was normal and actually could settle
- I decided to remarry because I was still in my 20s and wanted to have a normal life
- I married again, only to find on the very first day of the marriage that he too was abusive, hated my boys, and wanted only me
- This marriage become hugely toxic and I was stuck. I lost the trust of my kids and was in a very dark place
- He constantly threatened to leave and left many many times
- I had 2 more boys in this marriage
- When my son was just 3 months old, he left me on my birthday, and the next I heard from him was that he married someone else. I still took him back and it became even more toxic
- I was devastated and lost all hope in life, however, this event was also the most lifechanging for me
- I came across a quote the same night I found out that he married someone. The Quote is this "Your sickness is from you, but you do not perceive it, your remedy is within you, but you do not sense it. You presume you are a small entity, but within you is enfolded the entire Universe. Therefore, you have no need to look beyond yourself, what you seek, is within you, if only you reflect" (Imam Ali)
- This quote stopped me in my tracks and put me on a quest to find this universe within me
- Aside from all this, I suffered from severe racial abuse, my home which I had spent all my savings on was burgled 7 times, and my property was petrol bombed, at which point, I was forced to leave my home.
- I had forced marriage at 16
- The very first love of my life, which was the right to education was taken away from me
- I had domestic abuse which led me to leave home in my teenage years
- I experienced modern-day slavery while away from home and was locked away for months experiencing more emotional and physical abuse
- I returned home after finding out that my father had left home and married a girl just 3 years older than me because of the "shame" I brought upon him for leaving home
- I fell into deep depression seeing my mother and siblings without any help and being systematically isolated from the whole community.
- I couldn't cope with this pain and entirely blamed myself for the misery everyone was living, so I attempted 5 suicide attempts (thankfully and obviously failed each time, but went through an incredible amount of pain both physically and emotionally).
- I then had an arranged marriage in the hope of settling down and showing everyone that I was 'normal' and could 'settle' just like any other good Asian/ Pakistani girl.
- This marriage was abusive on every front including financially, shaming me for my past, making me lose everyone I knew, making me leave my job, not speak to my family, and forcing me to have kids
- I had 2 amazing boys from this marriage but the marriage was over as soon as he got his British passport
- I was a single parent for a while and was working to make the ends meet but still felt very lonely and also wanted to desperately prove to the world that I actually was normal and actually could settle
- I decided to remarry because I was still in my 20s and wanted to have a normal life
- I married again, only to find on the very first day of the marriage that he too was abusive, hated my boys, and wanted only me
- This marriage become hugely toxic and I was stuck. I lost the trust of my kids and was in a very dark place
- He constantly threatened to leave and left many many times
- I had 2 more boys in this marriage
- When my son was just 3 months old, he left me on my birthday, and the next I heard from him was that he married someone else. I still took him back and it became even more toxic
- I was devastated and lost all hope in life, however, this event was also the most lifechanging for me
- I came across a quote the same night I found out that he married someone. The Quote is this "Your sickness is from you, but you do not perceive it, your remedy is within you, but you do not sense it. You presume you are a small entity, but within you is enfolded the entire Universe. Therefore, you have no need to look beyond yourself, what you seek, is within you, if only you reflect" (Imam Ali)
- This quote stopped me in my tracks and put me on a quest to find this universe within me
- Aside from all this, I suffered from severe racial abuse, my home which I had spent all my savings on was burgled 7 times, and my property was petrol bombed, at which point, I was forced to leave my home.
Fast forward a few years of soul searching and healing, I am now a holistic transformational life coach, I am an international best-selling author, I am the founder of a nonprofit organization to help the youth in my community, and am currently writing my second book about my life story.
My coaching practice is doing okay, I think I could use some more business help but I am a whole different person than who I used to be. I no longer have any desire to prove to anyone that I am normal, whatever that means. I am me, I love me. I love what I do. I make a difference to the world around me and I look forward to each and every single day.
this course has been super powerful for me. I have learned an incredible amount of information that is helping me in my business.
Since taking this course, my business has grown hugely compared to before. I have grown as a person even more and have loved each and every single moment of it. I wasn't able to join all the lives but I watched all of them and did my assessments. it has genuinely been one of the best courses I have ever been on.
Since taking this course, my business has grown hugely compared to before. I have grown as a person even more and have loved each and every single moment of it. I wasn't able to join all the lives but I watched all of them and did my assessments. it has genuinely been one of the best courses I have ever been on.
I am deeply inspired by Ajit and see myself being like him as I grow more. His confidence, his knowledge, his way of articulating, and generally just the amazing energy he exudes. That is me. In one of the exercises, he made us see ourselves 1 year from now, and I saw myself sharing a stage with him. This will happen. not sure when or how but it will - the heart knows ... right?
once again - Thank you all. you are incredible and I am honored to have been a part of such an amazing program.