Mindvalley has opened so many doors for me, I have a strong desire to give back as well as spread the word.
I am not just a survivor, I’m a thrive-or. I’m not a victim, but a participant in my own evolution. I’ve been told a few times over that I needed to tell my story, and I always offered the same response of “Which one?”.
Well, once again here comes Mindvalley leading me to the one I feel most strongly about needing to share. I was very familiar with the work of Anodea Judith before she came to Mindvalley. I’ve studied her writings and used them to help myself and also my family.
I remember after watching a free Masterclass with Jeffery Allen having the strong desire to draw her work to Mindvalley. I used some of Mr. Allen’s techniques along with some others I have learned to try and make that connection. After a few months, my efforts faded due to my own personal turmoil I was trudging through. So it came as quite a surprise when in December of 2018 I received an email announcing Anodea’s program she put together for Mindvalley. She had asked for testimonials to promote the program and the prize possibly being to attend the class for free. I spent over a month learning how to video clip and making countless efforts to condense my video entry into the two minutes requested. In the end, I simply could not do it and sent on my best condensed version of 12 minutes. At this point, I just wanted to thank Anodea for her work and let her know how it has affected me, my family, and even members of my community. I knew it was too long and I would not win the free class, but I was happy with my choice of simply sending out my heart felt thank you. This was a big step for me, because I knew I could not spend the money on the course as my husband was not on board with the idea of spending money on Mindvalley. And I would not go against the man I loved, especially in the mind frame he was at the time. Imagine a love so deep it is almost as if you can read the others thoughts, feel the others feelings, know when to be the rock and when to be the water. Twin Flames, Soulmates, Inseperable. I did receive a personal thank you email from Anodea and I remember reading it and crying for joy for quite some time. My husband was shocked I even got a response; he had not seen the video I made since he was also firmly against putting any personal information on or through the internet. He was so happy for me, but also held firm that I could learn what she had to teach without spending the money. Needless to say I was very sad I could not convince him, but also very happy I had given a piece of myself to Anodea and actually got a response. This was in February 2019. On March 12, 2019 my sweet soul mate took his own life. He led me to the room we had built together, actually we were still working on…I did not understand, but something made me ask my son to go find something to do in his room. I told my sweetheart he was scaring me, he said a few things then proceeded to take his own life right in front of me in a way that was final. No way to save him, no way to know what he was going to do, no way to stop him. This was horror personified in both a physically and mentally gruesome fashion. The last few days of his were also from a horror story for me. I knew he needed help, but in the same breath was in fear for myself and my own children as well. I researched and studied hard every moment of every day on ways I could help him, as he was also strongly against receiving any help from anyone but me. For how strong of a man he was, it never even crossed my mind he was planning such a deed. I don’t know how I made it through the next few weeks, I could not even tell you when I made the decision to actually sign up for Anodea’s Mindvalley class of Chakra Healing. All I knew was that when the last of my family left my home, I had two young souls that were relying on me to help them through this difficult time and I needed to heal myself as quickly as possible. I would give my last penny to have help to get there, and I knew her teachings have already helped me immensely. I was going all in, full scope even though I was completely blinded by trauma and unpredictable flashbacks that brought me to my knees regardless of where I was or who was around. My initial mission statement was simply complex – I needed to heal well enough to function for myself and my children. I was already familiar with chakra work, so did not know what to expect as far as new material. But since day 1 of the quest, I knew this would be unlike reading books, I was not making my own map here I was following her guide. In all honesty I was quite numb at the time the quest began, but I diligently worked through the questions and followed her guide to the letter. I did the yoga almost every day, and absolutely fell in love with the bioenergetic movements. They came in quite handy when I felt the grief coming on, and also when I felt completely deflated by my situation. I was shocked at how much the yoga postures brought out emotion in me. I thought it was crazy, may be just a product of my own mental situation. Then others seemed to be saying similar things in the Facebook group. This really piqued my interest and I made a note to come back and explore the ‘why’ of this later. I never dreamed of even having a Facebook page, but in my numbness I threw all my caution to the wind and began to participate. And in a dark moment as I was seeking some dim light I posted a little of my trauma as part of a confession the course was asking for. I was deeply and thoroughly touched by the responses I received – even had someone else open up about their trauma in response to mine. I felt so cared for and safe, the first time I felt that since my husband’s death. As the course led us all up the Chakras, so much emotion and feeling was coming out. More than I ever expected, but there was always a path given as to how to work with these emotions and feelings. I was clearing out the baggage without realizing it. It was difficult to get through, but as Anodea mentioned in one of her online meetings, trauma is like a pressure cooker where as you must let out a little steam at a time. If you pop the top to let it all out at once, you may blow. So let it out in little bursts until you feel it is time to rebuild – but without the pressure. During the manifesting current, I found myself finally facing the fact my visions of the future were all null now and I had to rebuild. Either that or possibly drag my family down with me - which was not an option. It was a few months after his death now, and I found myself picking up the pieces and peeking out of my fog. I knew I was not healed, but I was finally functioning enough to keep things together in my home and slowly painting my new future self. It was the last week of the course and I knew I had the map, but I also knew I would walk this path many times in my journeys. My initial objective to heal and function enough was realized, and now it was time to go back to where my notes said I needed work or research. I’ve since completed this course two more times, complimented it with Lifebook (thank you so very much for this opportunity Mindvalley!), and am on my way. There are so many ways to apply the map that Chakra healing provides, not just for trauma, but also for manifesting things in each of your 12 categories! Sprinkle this with a little Eden Energy Medicine (also EFT), and RTT Transformation, and I now can tame my flashbacks to let’s say literally a flash and not a full unstoppable episode. I would love to manifest a certificate from every course Mindvalley has to offer, even made a business plan for a Mindvalley Café that is on my potential list. Whichever path I choose, Mindvalley has been an integral part of my journey since the day I stumbled upon my first video. See you at A-Fest one day!
I am not just a survivor, I’m a thrive-or. I’m not a victim, but a participant in my own evolution. I’ve been told a few times over that I needed to tell my story, and I always offered the same response of “Which one?”.
Well, once again here comes Mindvalley leading me to the one I feel most strongly about needing to share. I was very familiar with the work of Anodea Judith before she came to Mindvalley. I’ve studied her writings and used them to help myself and also my family.
I remember after watching a free Masterclass with Jeffery Allen having the strong desire to draw her work to Mindvalley. I used some of Mr. Allen’s techniques along with some others I have learned to try and make that connection. After a few months, my efforts faded due to my own personal turmoil I was trudging through. So it came as quite a surprise when in December of 2018 I received an email announcing Anodea’s program she put together for Mindvalley. She had asked for testimonials to promote the program and the prize possibly being to attend the class for free. I spent over a month learning how to video clip and making countless efforts to condense my video entry into the two minutes requested. In the end, I simply could not do it and sent on my best condensed version of 12 minutes. At this point, I just wanted to thank Anodea for her work and let her know how it has affected me, my family, and even members of my community. I knew it was too long and I would not win the free class, but I was happy with my choice of simply sending out my heart felt thank you. This was a big step for me, because I knew I could not spend the money on the course as my husband was not on board with the idea of spending money on Mindvalley. And I would not go against the man I loved, especially in the mind frame he was at the time. Imagine a love so deep it is almost as if you can read the others thoughts, feel the others feelings, know when to be the rock and when to be the water. Twin Flames, Soulmates, Inseperable. I did receive a personal thank you email from Anodea and I remember reading it and crying for joy for quite some time. My husband was shocked I even got a response; he had not seen the video I made since he was also firmly against putting any personal information on or through the internet. He was so happy for me, but also held firm that I could learn what she had to teach without spending the money. Needless to say I was very sad I could not convince him, but also very happy I had given a piece of myself to Anodea and actually got a response. This was in February 2019. On March 12, 2019 my sweet soul mate took his own life. He led me to the room we had built together, actually we were still working on…I did not understand, but something made me ask my son to go find something to do in his room. I told my sweetheart he was scaring me, he said a few things then proceeded to take his own life right in front of me in a way that was final. No way to save him, no way to know what he was going to do, no way to stop him. This was horror personified in both a physically and mentally gruesome fashion. The last few days of his were also from a horror story for me. I knew he needed help, but in the same breath was in fear for myself and my own children as well. I researched and studied hard every moment of every day on ways I could help him, as he was also strongly against receiving any help from anyone but me. For how strong of a man he was, it never even crossed my mind he was planning such a deed. I don’t know how I made it through the next few weeks, I could not even tell you when I made the decision to actually sign up for Anodea’s Mindvalley class of Chakra Healing. All I knew was that when the last of my family left my home, I had two young souls that were relying on me to help them through this difficult time and I needed to heal myself as quickly as possible. I would give my last penny to have help to get there, and I knew her teachings have already helped me immensely. I was going all in, full scope even though I was completely blinded by trauma and unpredictable flashbacks that brought me to my knees regardless of where I was or who was around. My initial mission statement was simply complex – I needed to heal well enough to function for myself and my children. I was already familiar with chakra work, so did not know what to expect as far as new material. But since day 1 of the quest, I knew this would be unlike reading books, I was not making my own map here I was following her guide. In all honesty I was quite numb at the time the quest began, but I diligently worked through the questions and followed her guide to the letter. I did the yoga almost every day, and absolutely fell in love with the bioenergetic movements. They came in quite handy when I felt the grief coming on, and also when I felt completely deflated by my situation. I was shocked at how much the yoga postures brought out emotion in me. I thought it was crazy, may be just a product of my own mental situation. Then others seemed to be saying similar things in the Facebook group. This really piqued my interest and I made a note to come back and explore the ‘why’ of this later. I never dreamed of even having a Facebook page, but in my numbness I threw all my caution to the wind and began to participate. And in a dark moment as I was seeking some dim light I posted a little of my trauma as part of a confession the course was asking for. I was deeply and thoroughly touched by the responses I received – even had someone else open up about their trauma in response to mine. I felt so cared for and safe, the first time I felt that since my husband’s death. As the course led us all up the Chakras, so much emotion and feeling was coming out. More than I ever expected, but there was always a path given as to how to work with these emotions and feelings. I was clearing out the baggage without realizing it. It was difficult to get through, but as Anodea mentioned in one of her online meetings, trauma is like a pressure cooker where as you must let out a little steam at a time. If you pop the top to let it all out at once, you may blow. So let it out in little bursts until you feel it is time to rebuild – but without the pressure. During the manifesting current, I found myself finally facing the fact my visions of the future were all null now and I had to rebuild. Either that or possibly drag my family down with me - which was not an option. It was a few months after his death now, and I found myself picking up the pieces and peeking out of my fog. I knew I was not healed, but I was finally functioning enough to keep things together in my home and slowly painting my new future self. It was the last week of the course and I knew I had the map, but I also knew I would walk this path many times in my journeys. My initial objective to heal and function enough was realized, and now it was time to go back to where my notes said I needed work or research. I’ve since completed this course two more times, complimented it with Lifebook (thank you so very much for this opportunity Mindvalley!), and am on my way. There are so many ways to apply the map that Chakra healing provides, not just for trauma, but also for manifesting things in each of your 12 categories! Sprinkle this with a little Eden Energy Medicine (also EFT), and RTT Transformation, and I now can tame my flashbacks to let’s say literally a flash and not a full unstoppable episode. I would love to manifest a certificate from every course Mindvalley has to offer, even made a business plan for a Mindvalley Café that is on my potential list. Whichever path I choose, Mindvalley has been an integral part of my journey since the day I stumbled upon my first video. See you at A-Fest one day!