My issues in life have been shyness, anxiety and depression. I am an only child. My parents were in their 40’ s when I was born and spent quite a while travelling for my Dad’ s work. I was left behind with their friends, care takers or a family friend. I felt very alone. I also struggled in school since I was so shy and I did not like the way the other girls treated people which left me on the outside looking in.
My father got sick around the same time that my son was born in 1998. Dad was never really well again although he lived until 2010. We were very close. This took up a huge amount of my emotional resources and I ended up very depressed. I was working as an accountant until about 2002. At that stage I became a full time mother and caretaker for my parents. We also had the same family friend, who had looked after me, with Alzheimer's who I was caring for. I had power of attorney and was responsible for her until she died last month. I dealt with care takers, nursing homes and hospitals along with organizing her finances while also doing the same for my parents. We also moved my mother into a nursing home this year and cleared her house for renting. This has left me very drained.
My husband and I met in 1989 and got married in 1992. It was just the right time in our lives and we have grown together over the years. We had two miscarriages early in our marriage which brought us very close together. We were living in England away from our families in Ireland which was a blessing as we had to deal with everything ourselves. We have had ups and downs as I struggled with depression, low self-esteem and feelings of "just being the support staff" but as I came into my own power we have grown closer and closer. I love him with all my heart.
My son Matthew is wonderful. He is 17 now. I did not let him out of my sight until he was about 14. All the feelings of being left behind by my parents were still with me. Once I cleared that I was able to let him go. He now travels Europe skiing with a racing club during his holidays from school. We have the most amazing, loving relationship. I was lucky to be able to discuss all that I was learning about life with him. He is very sensitive and has a lot to teach me too.
I have been on every healing course I could find this year in Dublin. I have watched and re-watched so many of your videos. My life is completely different and I am completely different. I have learned so much about myself and how I was sabotaging my life. I can put myself first and stand in my power and voice. When I am facilitating healing I know I am in the right place at the right time. I will never stop learning and evolving. Deborah has gently made me look at my life and see where I am coming from and why I behave as I do. My mind has been opened! I love having techniques like chelation to base healing on. At the moment I am only working with friends and other students. I have not yet worked out how to move on from here which is why I am continuing to learn. I am hoping to put together a selection of techniques I feel comfortable with to offer to others.
I have been blessed and I am blessed. I have had so much love in my life, Deborah’ s teachings have let me see this and also come to terms with all the different relationships I have had with myself and others over the years.