"I started really learning a new life's lows"

6 month ago I have got the biggest shock/personally crash in my life. My lovely husband has died unexpectedly in COVID19, I stayed with 4 children and devastated. So I started the biggest transformation of my life. Sold my company of accountants and started live life from the feeling, from the heart. Do absolutely what I feel to do, live in the now-time. So, and I see, I had some disharmony in some places, so started really learning a new life's lows.