"I want to change my mindset, think and speak abundantly"

I always belief, the more I give to the others, the more I gain, the more I love the others, I will not feel that I am lacking of love or cares. This was taught by my mum since I was a kid. I practice this belief though I am hurt by the others sometimes, I do not want to turn to be selfish/protective just because I am not treated well. Recently, I have very low self-esteem, in these three years. I always feel that I am a poor guy, a looser without any achievements and I am helpless and clueless to change my current situation. I want to change this and transform my life, that's the reason I signed up the quest. I want to change my mindset, think and speak abundantly. I must be a healthy, happy and wealthy guy! I belief I can make it after going through the quest.